Monday, December 18, 2006

Almost Christmas

people say this everywhere. i hope our office will realize this.
well, I'm blessed that my friends and family are always at my back for support. the end-of-the-year reports are so deadly.

Dear Lord, I pray for courage and knowledge to finish all these. Thank you.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

An ounce of loyalty is worth a pound of cleverness.

I think I'm beginning to drop that statement. :'(

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

in tears

i'm not feeling very happy right now; actually, I'm shedding a lot of tears at the moment. i am so frustrated with the things happening at work and i believe i would feel better after crying. huh! i wish this is over. Lord, please equip me and give me peace. I pray for help with all my heart, Jesus. Amen.

Friday, December 08, 2006


German word, technical term used in Planning
literal meaning: "zeit = time; geis = spirit"

I attended a lecture on planning today conducted by a German Professor Mattens (?).
It means combination of technical, practical factors combined with the social aspect or human feeling (in other words). Experience taught the Germans that it's vitally important to consider and establish participation and commitment from the people benefiting in order to ensure the continuous success of any project. Hmm, that's what we have been doing all along in public administration. A more familiar term is People's Involvement or People's participation. In public administration, stakeholder analysis is very important.

zeitgeis, as I got it, refers to an overall consideration and weighing of stakeholders in order to achieve a better planning output.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Goodbye, Pete! :'(

February 2004-November 27, 2006

Last Sunday, something terrible happened at home. Our dog, Charlie, bit our pet duck, Pete. I think it was really bad; Pete was so traumatized. He jumped off the creek and we only managed to catch him with a big net dipper. After he was saved, he ran off the yard and would not let anyone come near him.

I had to go to Manila that night, so I did not see Pete before I left. Last night, my sister told me that Pete cannot be located. They were searching all over and could not find him. My brother was out late in the dark to look for him. I felt really bad. I was so worried something worse had happened. Could not help but cry. This morning, she said they found Pete—dead.

This was really an accident; Pete should've not gotten near Charlie. The dog does not know him; we did not raise Charlie, so he's not familiar with the other pets. Charlie hates our cats, chickens, and of course, our duck. It has been a culture in the family that all pets know each other--by this I mean, they live in harmony. Our dogs naturally won't mind sharing its food with the cats, neither with the chickens nor a duck. The history is, Pete grew up living with our old dog Bunso. They were best buddies. Unfortunately, Bunso got sick and died. Pete thought he could befriend Charlie, perhaps because he's a dog, but that's impossibility. Since the day Charlie came, Pete always comes near him. Alas, Charlie was negative. We tried to bar Pete from getting near, but Pete would always find ways. And Sunday was the day I feared the most for Pete.

I named him Pete because he has three flipped feathers on his head like that of Peter Pan. It is so cute. Pete likes to play with everybody; tag game is his favorite. He is also very naughty; when you're not looking, be ready for a mischievous bite from this stubborn duck. At times, he terrifies children! Funny! We all love Pete.

Pete has been with the family for more than two years and had his fair share of fame from the pet lineup. He's what was left of the 15 male ducklings my father tried to raise for past time. He's certainly one unique duck who thinks he's a dog! He even sleeps at the doorsteps. So stubborn yet so cute. What I like about him the most is his ability to respond. Pete is very smart. He knows his name. Whenever he hears you call him, even if he's somewhere else, he will certainly respond with a "Quack!" and then tries his best to get to you in a flash! He's really adorable!

I told the sad news to my other brother who's away. He was so depressed; same with everybody in the family. I could imagine how sad my nieces will be when they get the message. My younger brother and sister recorded the burial rites; the other pets were there, too. My father orchestrated the event. I'm going home tonight to know the details.

I really feel sorry about this loss. It reminds me of losing my cat, Musang. So sad. We will miss you Pete. Goodbye.

Friday, November 24, 2006

back to office

we have just arrived from another training we conducted today. it was tiring but a lot easier today than the previous ones that we had. As always, I led the invocation. I got a tap on the shoulder form our Dean, saying that was a beautiful prayer. Thanks! I just made sure that as I pray, I communicated with God. Praise to the Lord.

We have so much to do until the end of the month. I'm working on the terminal report for the national congress i did last month. hey, this one's tough. I'll be submitting the report to the funding agencies and it has to be neat. Also, I'm still working on the Policy Reform Agenda Brief (PRAB) on Indigenous Peoples. This is actually the cause of my headache. i pray that the Lord would grant me enough knowledge and perseverance to finish this paper. I wish to finish it today. And also, right now I'm working on the documentation of the training/workshop we juat had. Pwew! Talk about report writing.

Next month, I believe our calendar's a lot freer. Most of our schedules has been moved in January. Hallelujah! Maybe we'll have our Bangkok trip pushed through come December. It's almost two years delayed. I want to keep my fingers cross for that.

Oh, Happy Thanksgiving to my friends out there!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

bad dreams

I had another nightmare last night. It was almost 2am when I went to bed. I’m working on several papers that need to be finished; brought home a load of readings. I finally declared I have to retire from the readings; I took my Bible for the scriptures. After a short prayer, I turned off the lights and head to my pillows. The moment I closed my eyes, there’s like a surge of electricity that ran into my body, I felt numb and could hardly move. My mind was awake but I have no control over my body. Then, I heard familiar voices but this time they were speaking quite weird things and laughing hard at my ear like the ones we hear in horror films. It’s happening again. I had the same experience before. It felt like my jaw was locked I couldn’t speak. I was praying in my mind and called on the name of the Lord. I finally was able to say “Jesus”. I thought my roommates heard me but they were sound asleep. Each time I close my eyes, that numbness happens. So I said, Lord, I’m tired. I really want to go to sleep. I turned on the lights and finally found a good night sleep. Thank God.

Friday, November 17, 2006

The Embassy experience

We went early (before 10am) to come ahead of our 1:15 interview at the US Embassy in Manila. We had not met the officer until 3:45 pm.

So much for the much-anticipated interview at the embassy.

We are confident with the scheduled interview since everything we have is TRUTH. Anyhow, the Lord was very gracious to spare us from the possibility of error (due to jitters) during the interview. To our surprise, the embassy officer readily approved our application; He did not even care to see our other documents. The officer had no plan on seeing us one by one as well. Pastor Mark insisted. The officer barely said, “Hello” and that was it. With me, we had a very short talk:

Officer: Hello.
Me: Hello, Sir.
Officer: So, you are one of the performing artists?
Me: No, Sir. I’m the editor of Branded by Fire, the MYF Newsletter. I’m also one of the core leaders of MYF.
Officer: Oh! Thank you.
Me: Thank you, Sir.

That’s it. The shortest interview I ever had in my life. Afterwards, we were told to retrieve our passports with visa. Haha!

I'm pretty sure there's divine intervention right there!


Wednesday, November 15, 2006


And the Lord's hand was before us; we found favor in the eyes of the embassy officer. We got our visas!

Thank you Lord. And thanks to all who prayed for us. This is the second miracle for this trip-to-US saga. The first is Bayside Church's invitation; next is the US visa approval; and we're praying for the third miracle: God's provision for the airfare.

We have a big God. He gave us two miracles in a row, i know He'll provide the third one. Amen!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Tomorrow's the interview for our visa application. help us in prayer. thanks.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

The Lord's reply


Last night, the Lord once again showed me His abounding mercy and grace.

I called home to check how they are doing. At the back of my mind I'm still struggling with the idea that I might not send my sister to nursing school this semester. You see, I support my siblings' schooling; two in college and one in high school. This semester, I was short in my budget and could not meet this semesters' tuition fee for my sister. I really don't know what to do. I just prayed and left it to God.

And so, my sister told me a lot of happy things. It was great to hear them. Then I asked, "What if you only have this much, could you still enroll?" She replied, "Don't worry about me, Ate, on Friday I will enroll. God provides."

I couldn't contain myself. Tears of joy instantly rolled down my cheeks. Just when I badly needed the Lord's grace, He sustains. Praise God!

And all praise and thanks is to you Lord, my Faithful Provider and loving Father.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Interview Schedule

Finally, we are scheduled for an interview at the US Embassy in Manila on November 14. Please pray that our visas get approved. This is our major step to be able to attend the Thrive 2007 Conference in California.

Thanks a lot!

God bless!
antok na antok ako ngayon..haayy...

Thursday, November 02, 2006


It should be worthy to say here that after the long preparation, hard work, heartaches, stress, and plain busyness, the Congress finally closed as a huge success! Everybody was commending us with the outcome of the event. Praise God! I remember, a week before the Congress, I almost quit my job! That moment was just overwhelming it felt like I'm going to explode. Thank God for making me calm amidst all troubles.

I just want to say thanks to everyone who helped me get through this Congress. To all the prayers and support: Thank you! I feel like a better person today.

Anyway, life goes on. Right now, I'm working on another big project--bigger than the Congress. This time, my participants will come from all over the Asia Pacific, A Regional Conference of Academes. Pwew! Makes me think the Congress was just a guinea pig. We'll see.

I better eat a lot now.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Please pray for me.

Tomorrow is the start of our Congress--my big day! Pray that everything goes well. Thank you for all the support.

Monday, October 23, 2006

curly len?!

yup, i did it. went to the parlor last saturday and curled my hair. Xp

the congress is just a few days ahead...

Thursday, October 19, 2006

time out

Yesterday, I almost quit my job. I was so pissed off by the way things are going and almost decided to quit. I’m glad to have reminded my self that decisions made while on the peak of strong emotions are usually irrational. Huh! I almost gave in!

Guess I have some room here to discuss. Well, it all boils down to the tiresome preparation for the Congress. I’ve been doing everything for the last how many months and somehow it has taken a great deal of my life. It was tough, but still manageable. As the big day approaches, the more sedulous the tasks have become. Tired. Stressed. Frustrated. Depressed. That’s been me lately.

The other day, I was preparing everything needed for the orientation of our Convenors and facilitators for the Congress workshop. I had very little time to complete them but still I finished. I’ve been coming early to and leaving late from work to get all things done. And yesterday, I was there very early to check on everything and finish whatever’s left to do. To my surprise, while I was working on a document they handed to me the very last minute, my boss noticed that the margin of the other materials was too small to be clipped. OMG, The MARGIN! Just the margin which no one will ever pay attention to. I felt so frustrated hearing that as my concern was the content of the material and the completeness of all the documents. The margin really didn’t matter to her before but for whatever was with her that time, she clamored about the margin. She did not even warn me that we have to clip them together in the first place. That was too much for me. Felt it was so unfair. As if my effort and hard work was gone to waste just because of wrong margin. If I had not controlled myself; I could have resigned that instant.

But God is good. After lunch, everything was well again. Goodness. And I was able to wear that smile. Honestly, I almost forgot all about the margin until I got home.

You may think that I should really find another job. I thought about it even before this Congress thing came up and realized that I really like being part of the Center, being a researcher, a part of the university, helping my country in our modest way. It’s tiring and requires a lot of effort, but somehow I love it. Perhaps what’s causing me this stress is the bulk of work and the pressure that comes with it, or at times, my colleagues, but I shouldn’t concentrate my eyes on the hurdles. A friend told me that what matters most is if it satisfies what you really want. There’s a part of me that agrees. I believe I should really agree. I just have to keep my self compose until this project is over and I know things will be alright soon. Just a few days left. I hope you add me in your prayers, too. Thanks.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

My medicine

This morning, I have requested a friend to pray for me as I'm having troubles with my system. He sent me a few prescription from the Our Doctor. I find it very effective. You may want to try them. Here's the prescription:

Proverbs 4:22
Jeremiah 17:14
Psalms 103: 1-5
Isaiah 53:4-5
1 Peter 2:24
Isaiah 40:30-31
Proverbs 18:21.

God bless!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006


I dreamt of my mother last night. It was so clear, I thought it was real. We were together eating banana. She ate hers without peeling it; happily taking a mouthful in every bite. I enjoyed watching her eat and did the same with mine. Together, we ate happily and contented.

I saw her eyes looking straight at me. I felt so much comfort in them. It was a long time since I had such carefree feeling; right there beside her, I didn’t mind the world around us. We were not talking; just eating side by side. I was plainly happy eating my banana the weird way with my mom.

Then I woke up. I was disappointed to find myself in our room until it dawned to me that it was just a dream. I wanted to go back to dreaming; to be with my mother again. To feel so much care and comfort. To feel satisfied and content.

I am so depressed lately. Tired at work, busy with all things, and pressured at home. The last time I was in the pit of deep loneliness I also dreamt of my mom. I guess subconsciously, my brain is reciprocating my need—comfort. Honestly, it makes me cry thinking about this silly dream.

The dream was really weird besides eating the banana with its skin. First, my mom’s no longer around. It’s been more than four and a half years since she passed away. Still, there’s never a day I did not think of her. Second, I don’t eat banana. It makes my stomach sick. I guess what the dream is telling me is that even in the weirdest situation, I can still find comfort.

I read the Lord’s word today and found a verse in Psalms, “I will be with you until your hair turns gray…” Thank you Lord. I know He made me dream of my mom to give a timeout from all the stress of the world. And His promise never fails. The Lord is with me.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Prayer Request

As I've said, I'm really busy right now --at work, in church, and even at home. Please pray for me. I'm having a hard time breathing lately--like catching my breath all the time. There's something heavy in my chest. I guess it's mainly my being busy and tired; I know things will be a lot better after the Congress. I jut need enough strength to finish all these. Thanks!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


* hmm, sounds familiar… a Highlight refers to a written document of what went on in a particular event. I make one all the time.

Skipped a lot of blogging lately… so many things going on; busy-ness took over.

• Sept 25 – farewell tribute to my officemate, Chang. She left for Bangladesh on Sept 27.
• Sept 26 – another busy day at the office.
• Sept 27 – GCM meeting at De La Salle. Seen Bro. Roly for the first time. Meeting went well. I accidentally hurt myself with a sharp pencil—Ouch! (wound is almost healed).
• Sept 28 – the Typhoon Milenyo came. All classes and offices were suspended. It rocked the entire place. Roofs were blown like feathers in the air. Trees were uprooted. The wind was terrifying.
• Sept 29 – No power everywhere. Offices are still suspended. The damage was terrible.
• Sept 29 – All workers meeting at Turn to Jesus Mojon. Handled the Orientation of Ushering Ministry volunteers with Red. A lot can not make it due to conflict sched and the typhoon. Had 32 willing ushers-to-be. Hope to multiply come training proper. Actual training begins on Oct 24.
• Sept 30 – men-at-church-at-work. the typhoon blew a portion of the church roof. Repairs are being done.
• Oct 1 – first Sunday. Communion. Meeting at the MYF office. Still no power in Manila.
• Oct. 2 – went off to work. rode a bus—no fx coming; I’ll be late! Back to work mode. Had good lunch with my friends. (girl talk: red flag raised; I take that as a blessing.)
• Oct. 3 – number of confirmed participants to Congress increasing. Praise God! (girl talk: found Indonesia on my blanket and an island on my bed sheet. Poor Len)

Yesterday, I was so upset to find out that I missed a friend's birthday. Really sorry. Glad He had a great one.

Monday, September 18, 2006

One good deed on a Monday.

I’m technically on top of the National Congress project. Most of my time at work is devoted to minding how the Congress will run (hands on)-—from invitations, registration and fees, program, speakers, to funding. Pwew, this is no easy job. Anyway, I had to work on the budget with one of our donors. There’s been misunderstanding which resulted in a drop of the grant to half the amount. Oh my! This will certainly cause drastic effect on my project. I talked to the coordinator and clarified things and Ola! By the grace of God, I was able to pin down the proposed amount. It was approved! YES! I feel so accomplished! Thank you Lord for a good Monday.

Thursday, September 14, 2006


read as "kuh'poo'ii"
Cebuano term for "tired".

I really am.

Monday, September 11, 2006

A butterfly outside my window…

I came from the province this morning. I had to take the late morning ride for two reasons: (1) it was raining cats and dogs since dawn; and (2) the influx of commuters on a Monday will definitely worsen my not-so-well body (colds with cough make me weak). I came to the office not until 10:30 am. I warned them anyway.

Read an email from Sir Keith. Thanks. I surely wish to see you and Ms. Patty in person soon. May the Lord allow us to meet.

I was blessed by the way Aidz wrote his newest entry. Positive attitude. Now I’m more convinced that he likes Kris’ DEAL or NO DEAL. While pondering on this insight, I looked at the window and saw a little white butterfly outside. This is the start. I know it will be a great day.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Friday again!

this week ran too fast...

went to the hospital yesterday to visit officemate.. he had dengue. He's recovering now.

I'm not feeling well >caught colds< and now my body's weak... guess i'll be going home early today.

we'll host my orgmate's farewell party. She's going to Canada before the end of the month. we'll miss you, Nay Janielle!!!

oops, today's Chris' birthday! happy birthday Chris!

Well, guess i really have to get some rest for tonight. bye for now.

Blessings to you!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

The Power of Prayer

Ask and it shall be given…Matthew 7:7

Last night, I prayed for this one particular item and the Lord has granted my request.

I just came from the lion’s den and survived it. Figuratively, that is! I was on a meeting this morning with the pool of experts so-to-speak but more of ‘powerful people trying to rule my professional life’. For the last six months, this project on citizenship had caused me not so little worries; to certain extent brought stress and almost burn out in my work. Today, we had another meeting and it seemed to me that this will be my ‘grilling moment all the more’ as the day of the Congress approaches, where all questions will be thrown at this poor junior staff amidst a group of old bosses. And so I prayed that the Lord would make things easy on me today; that they will see my side of the story, how things are running with the project and that this is no easy task at all. Praise God! It all turned out favorably for me. Now I can work with confidence and they will no longer harass me. Now I just pray that the Lord will bless this project and that we meet the target outputs! Please Lord!

I just want to give glory and thanks to the Almighty God who has always been my strength and salvation. Truly, He’s always on our side. Thank you, Jesus!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Monday, September 04, 2006

Monday Tips

The deepest level of worship is praising God inspite of pain, thanking God during trial, trusting God when tempted, and loving Him when He seems distant.

God’s blessings come as a surprise but how you receive depends on how much your heart believes…may you be blessed beyond what you expect.

Psalm 117 is the shortest chapter in the Bible while Psalm 119 is the longest. Psalm 118 is in the center of the Bible. There are 594 chapters before Psalm 118 and 594 chapters after that. 594+594=118. And what’s at the center of the Bible? Psalm 118:8 “IT IS BETTER TO TAKE REFUGE IN THE LORD THAN TO TRUST MAN.”

Friday, September 01, 2006

Happy Weekend

We are scheduled for an early pilgrimage to Cavite this weekend..
Looks like it's gonna be a Retreat afterall...

Happy weekend and Lord's Day!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

I'm sick.

Actually, for the last two days. But today, I was just too dizzy I ended up coming to the office not until after lunch.

Still dizzy but feeling a lot better now. I hope you include me in your prayer. I can't afford to get sick in the midst of everything. Thanks a lot.

I'll be going home early today to get enough rest.

Blessings to you!

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Sunday Blessings

The Lord’s Day is always a blessing.

Last Sunday, I attended two Church Services—7am-9am at our Local church and 9am-11.30am at RCM. The message in both churches delved in two topics; (1) recognizing the man of God; and (2) faithful tithing. It was good to hear the message and of course to be part of the worship. I was really blessed. Actually, I went to RCM with Bro. Mark and his family to promote the Freedom Concert in November. I’m happy to see old friends in that church and to share the passion of the MYF to the whole congregation. I’m happy to hear that Pastor Totle said the church will support the endeavor.

On the MYF Core meeting, Bro. Mark said he had major news to tell. He said Bayside Church already responded to our letter for the Thrive Conference next year and thus could be a roadblock to our plan to attend. On the contrary, he was just so excited to say that the Church in Sacramento actually sponsored our registration and accommodations for the entire Conference duration! Praise God! That was so much blessing for the team. Now, what we need to pray for is to raise enough money for the airfare going to the US and coming back home. The Lord is The Great Provider. Amen.

I have prayer requests to ask:

1. Please pray that all goes well with our preparation for the Freedom Concert Crusade in November. That the Lord fills the venue with souls to come to know Christ.
2. Also, pray that we meet the requirements to get our Visa. And that we raise the needed amount for our trip to the US.

Thank you so much. Blessings to you!

Friday, August 25, 2006

friday madness

at lat it's the end of the week...

going home!!! it's raining outside. I have so many things too do for next week!
i'll be heading to the last session of the Seminar on the Book of Revelation. Hope I catch up!

I'm tired. But I think the 'brisk walking' we had last night was really good. That will be a Thursday Night habit from now on.


Thursday, August 24, 2006

GCM meeting

This is work-related.

We had another meeting today. Honestly, I'm tired of it. This simply doesn't make the work easier; on the contrary, I think it hampers my productivity. Huh...*sigh*

This project specifically has caused me alot of stress. I don't know, this one in particular, gives me a headache...

I just wish the Congress will just be through. like that. of course i want it to be successful. So help me God.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Back to Headquarters!

Surprise! Surprise! I'm back at the office. My sister and I took the early ride and was successful (I was REALLY SURPRISED). Haha! Good thing we both aren't late..

Time to share my gratitude.

I thank all those who cared to remember my birthday and in one way or another extended their greetings to me. i love you, guys! You're the best. To my friends --here and afar -- thank you so much. You simply made a difference.

Just one person I missed alot --more than ever-- my mother.

Now I have to get back to work mode. So much for my vacation..

Monday, August 21, 2006

Day 1

First formal day being 24. Hmm, I did get a lot of sleep. Sew my brother's and father's pants. Helped Archie with his film analysis paper. Watched Jake 2.0 for the first time. this show is good. I like it a lot. A secret agent - thing. My kind of show.

As i write this, i'm thinking whether to go to Manila tonight or not. It will be more convenient for me to travel tonight since commuters will be swarming the streets tomorrow (today is a holiday). Huh, this is the dilemma of someone who stayed at home longer than the usual. You simply don't want to go anymore!

What if i just take chances and leave tomorrow morning? ---think--- Ok, I'll stay.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Birthday! Bodey!

Yup, the big day! As if. Well, of course, the Lord has blessed me with another year, I should be thankful and I am.

We had a good service this morning. It's happy to be home on your birthday. Actually, nobody expects me to be here today. Last week I said I'm going to Cavite for my birthday. (Well, that was all tantrums!!!) of course, I didn't. Naughty girl!

Sleep is the word. I got a dose of it today and yesterday. After the service this morning, the youth gave me a cartolina with their birthday messages. Yeah, too much of individual birthday cards. I got a lot of birthday greetings from friends, too. I'm wondering, when will the greetings stop and the gifts start coming??

At night, we all (the youth) went to perya (local carnival) and pick our rides. Last year, I tried the carousel. Guess what? I finally made it to the Horror Train! It's hilarious! We were screaming to ourselves for the sake of screaming. Haha! I think that made my day!

All I want to say is, Thank God for the gift of life.

Friday, August 18, 2006

small things make a difference…

i like that title. it means a lot to me.

We have a beautiful morning today. The sun is up and temperature is perfect! I have lots of things scheduled at work yet I believe this day will end blessed.

received a few morning messages today. some are funny, some are inspiring. thanks friends.

It’s my childhood friend’s birthday today. Incidentally, we have the same name (just slight difference in spelling) and almost the same birthday (mine is two days from now). It’s also my cousin’s birthday, Julius. Have not seen him for awhile. I miss you, kuya. Come home soon. Happy birthday to both of you.

And something really made my day today. I am so touched with this. Thanks Sir Keith. I appreciate it. I love the poem.

Tonight is the third session of the Seminar on the Book of Revelation. Lord send more kids tonight.

Happy weekend to all.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

today is a blessed day!

and i claim it the name of Jesus, my Lord and Savior! Amen.

The Lord has answered Teeny's prayers (and mine too!)! Thank God. Today we went off together to work and was really happy we did. We plan to have a lunch date later. I'm so happy the Lord blessed the desires of her heart and grant her a nice gift. The Lord is good. I'm so happy for you Teeny.

Last night, I shared some personal struggles with my friend Teeny. It was quite a relief and it's good to have someone to listen to you. Actually, I shared with her what I told my Pastor last Sunday. It was really relieving to speak with someone in God's family. Thank you Lord for using these people around me.

The book launching yesterday was a success. Thank God.

Today, I have several things on the line up. I pray for the Lord's wisdom and strength to fill me so I can finish everything for today and work with a cheerful heart. Thank God for reminding me the scripture, "work as if you do this in the Lord". I will try to remember that always. Have a wonderful day to all!

Monday, August 14, 2006


whenever you feel...
like you're the greatest loser on earth,
just remember...
Jesus thought you're worth-dying for.

Friday, August 11, 2006

friday entry

This is simply unbelievable (or maybe not!): My boss gave us another demanding workload in the midst of all the cramming projects that we already have. Not to mention that it overlaps the deadlines! My assignments are already killing me (ok, that’s exaggeration), and now here comes another research with a buzzer-beater deadline. OH MY!!! Lord, give me the strength and wisdom to meet all these…
Multi-tasking could really drag you to the limits…*sigh*


Today, my ‘favorite’ wu xia series (kung fu drama) will air its final episode. *sigh* I would really miss Dada and Gou’er…

Farewell Love of the Condor Heroes’ Xiao Long Nu and Yang Gou… you were really awesome! The martial arts was exceptional.


I’m going straight after work to the second session of the Seminar on the Book of Revelation. This is part of the four-Friday seminars we scheduled on the topic for August. Last week despite the rain, we still had the venue jam-packed, me and the other leaders had to stay outside. I hope I could get a seat today :p

I think it’s going to rain tonight. I’m looking forward to going home for the weekend.

Blessings to you!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

short entry

Yesterday was a very happy day. Again, the Lord has blessed us with a surprise (an early birthday gift to me and Aidz, ok, plus Teeny :p). Haha! We took the NEDA (National Economic Development Authority) Technical Exam and we passed! That was really great; since we didn’t really expect it (the whole-day exam was really tough—hands up--pwew!). Before we went, I read James 1:5 and claimed it. And praise God, He blessed us that day.

We had ice cream (Pistachio flavored). yum yum!
Thanks to my friends who prayed for me. And to my family, too.

Maybe it’s because of so many things I’m doing and still have to do (at work) that I feel so depressed today. Huh, tiring. I never want this feeling. *sigh*

Today is Aidz’ birthday. Happy birthday brother!

Monday, August 07, 2006


On Wednesday, I’m scheduled to take an exam from one government institution. Given a chance, this would really open good opportunities for me. However, I just learned today that we have a staff meeting on the same day. I certainly want to take the exam, but I’m torn with the idea of skipping a meeting. Plus, I don't want to disappoint my boss. Well, I don't really know if I can have a 'next time' to take this exam. Boy, how am I going to deal with this situation?
i think my phone is over... as in dead.
what makes me feel bad about it is that someone (i dont know who--my siblings!) plugged it using a different charger. i'm positive that this caused the flaw. now it just won't charge anymore. maybe it's the battery or the phone itself that was damaged... err...

just when i need it this happens...

Friday, August 04, 2006

Tan's exam

My little sister is going to take the entrance exam in our university this Sunday. Please pray that she makes it. Thanks. Lord, give her wisdom and knowledge.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

The May 10 phenomenon

Remember this post? Yup, it's about the flood-warning thunder of May. And so there was thunder on May 10. And today is August. Guess what? There is flood. As a matter of fact, our place is flooded (at least the front yard and the ground floor - we live in a two-storey house). Perhaps that 'thunder' was telling something afterall.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Prayer Request

Honestly, the family's having some serious concerns right now. I pray for God's guidance and wisdom in our decisions. And Lord, for love to cover all struggles and win over the enemy's trap. I pray for openmindedness. I specifically pray that the Lord would give my father wisdom and spiritual strength. Amen.

I am asking your support and prayers. Many thanks.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

be a blessing

So I went home last night. It took me a while before I finally catch the bus.

It’s not raining but the weather’s quite cold. I had a good night sleep. I woke up and it was raining this morning. It gave me a hard time getting off my bed. Without a choice, I had to prepare for work.

I rode an fx (a mega taxi with 10-passenger capacity) and was seated on the passenger’s seat. I was the only passenger. That wouldn’t be good for the driver because the toll fee cost is equivalent to almost two-passenger fares. For some reason, nobody is heading to Manila. I prayed that we’ll have enough passengers to make it fair for the driver. It was good that before we climbed up to the expressway, all seats were filled up. Thank you, Lord.

Today, pray that you will be a blessing to everybody that comes your way. Good day!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

IP Governance RTD

This post is work-related.

Yes! The RTD on IP Governance is over! (RTD is actually Roundtable Discussion; IP- Indigenous Peoples). We finished ahead of time (before 2pm, originally scheduled 9am-4pm). Now I’ve got to work on writing the documentation for this meeting.

Documenting an event is not an easy task, at least from my experience. It’s not merely transcribing what went on during the meeting; you have to put life and meat to the subjects discussed. Processing the data is already taking place here. You don’t simply hand the report, you make the report.

Ah, I feel so sleepy today. I’m going home tonight. Hopefully I’ll be out early this afternoon.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

bad dream

I’m feeling a lot better now than how I was this morning. I was flipped from bed by a bad dream around 4:30 am. I found myself almost (actually) shouting in anger. In my dream, this lad threw a big stone at my niece. He aimed at her head and was a perfect hit. I was really angered and was telling him not to do so but was too late. What made me more emotional is that this lad is actually troubling my sister today (in reality). On the other hand, I am totally bothered by missing my nieces who have been living away from us since May. Oh, I can hardly breathe when I wake up. Until this morning when I went to work, I’m still struggling to catch my breath.

Dear Lord, please make me feel better. And I pray that You’d always keep my love ones away from danger. Thank you, Jesus. Amen.

Friday, July 14, 2006


It’s Friday! The week’s gone too fast. I’ll be heading home later this afternoon.

Aidz is back! The family’s complete—at last. (Yay, Teeny!)

The weather’s not too friendly the last few days. There’s a typhoon (named Florita) and a lot of areas are badly affected. Classes were suspended yesterday and resumed today. I hope the weather will calm soon.

We watched Pirates of the Caribbean. AWESOME! Captain Jack Sparrow never disappoints me! You should see it. I liked every scene (oops, except the one with Elisabeth…o.o)

Bought a pair of rubber shoes for my little (now big) bro. Hope he likes it.

Ma'am Lily's back from Bangkok. Good!

Next week (at work), we have a roundtable discussion/Stakeholders’ Consultation/Workshop. Need to prepare for all those.

Have a great weekend!

Monday, July 10, 2006

Monday fever..

Yup, FEVER. I almost caught one last night. I was alone in our apartment and not feeling well. The headache was really bad; I decided sleep would give remedy. After reading the Word and a prayer , I went off to bed. Praise God, this morning I'm perfectly well =)

It's the start of the week. I pray that this one's gotta be awesome! Hey, Aidz is coming home today! He's on the way....

My little bro said he found my blog... Haha... I guess it's no longer 'secret' after all...

Oops..and it's Ammie's bday today. Happy birthday, Ammie!

Have a wonderful week ahead everyone! God bless!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

This morning, Garie said we have specific assignments to write about for the monthly report. I did two and was able to submit it at once. After lunch, my boss called up to me and asked if all the reports were turned in. Then I remembered that one was left out. It was almost 2pm; and the report must be ready by 2pm for the Executive Committee meeting. I hurriedly came up with a short news on the subject. What’s making me a little ‘unhappy’(grumpy) is the thought that, as if I was the one responsible for not having the reports available on time, when in fact, I volunteered to write two topics (plus this one now) while the rest gets one each. This really makes me feel bad. I'm a little pissed off. Nakakainis. Parang wala man lang silang ginawa tapos ang dating, sa akin pa ang sisi.

Aidz: Listen!

I read this verse on Sir Keith's blog. Was really blessed.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 says,
Two people can accomplish more than twice as much as one; they get a better return for their labor. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But people who are alone when they fall are in real trouble. And on a cold night, two under the same blanket can gain warmth from each other. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken. (NLT)

Uwi ka na!

Monday, July 03, 2006

Happy Bday, Crem!

I went to Crem's house last Saturday for a simple birthday celeb. Only the closest friends were there. It was nice to see old friends again. We had dinner and so many songs lined up.

With me were peeps from high school; and now together as 'grown-ups'. Really good reminiscing. As if high school was just yesterday.

Valiant Warriors, True Gents

I have not enjoyed boxing in years until last Sunday. The bout, Mano A Mano (WBC Superfeatherweight Division Championship) at the Araneta Coliseum between my countryman Manny Pacquiao and Mexican Oscar Larios was really remarkable. I just love every second spent in the ring. Manny is a southpaw while Larios owns a strong right. The battle ended in a beautiful 12-round decision.

Everybody expects a glaring knock out win for Manny. However, it ended up a Decision still in favor of our champ. I’m happy for the win. But more than ever, I really admired the hearts of both Larios and Manny. As if they were best friends playing their sport. I personally don’t want Larios to fall—at least he will have a decent, honorable defeat—he remained standing. I gentleman should be given due honor and that’s what I want Larios to have after he stepped down from the ring.

Manny is the pride of our land. His charisma to the Filipinos is unbelievable. Not only because he constantly brings honor to the Philippines but because Manny carries a humble Filipino spirit. He started out as a young country lad fighter and transformed into a respected champion because of his discipline and determination. People from all walks of life love him dearly. He has always dedicated every bout to the people. And most of all, he always make it a point to unite the people even for just a single fight in the ring. Honestly, if there’s one thing that Filipinos would agree without any variance, that’s when they speak about Pacquiao.

Now, I want to give my admiration to the challenger, Oscar Larios. He is one-strong fist himself. Wow! I have always dreamed of seeing a fight like he did last Sunday. He’s very apologetic, a clean fighter, with great endurance, and simply a good person. He acknowledges blows from his opponent and even able to give a smile or a nod. No trace of a grumpy, fierce fighter at all. He is a gentleman. I know fighters can be like that. Thank you Larios for making me see one. He is a sweet father to four girls! Haha! Wonderful father I may guess!

I wanted to quote Larios’ interview after the fight, “I am 100% prepared for this fight—mentally and physically. I really wanted to defeat Manny. But at the end of the fight, I lost to a great champion.” He then thanked the people with his, “Salamat, Pilipinas!” (Thank you, Philippines). And the crowd roared with respect and gratitude. At that moment, it seemed as if he won the bout.

Manny is a true champion. Larios really had a hard time nailing his feet on the ground. He fell twice, one on the seventh round and the other, on the twelfth. But he managed to remain standing to the end. He is a good fighter himself.

I just wish I would always see a fight as clean and beautiful as this one. Boxing maybe a harsh sport, but that doesn’t mean you can not find gentlemen inside the ring.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Collections, collections

I asked Pastor Mark a copy (each) of three DVDs and got them last Sunday: A Walk to Remember, The Woman Who Willed A Miracle and Radio! His secretary said my copy of The Miracle Worker (The Story of Helen Keller) is ready. Those were powerful, awesome films! I love them! You better watch them soon!!!

Somehow, it has something to do with my interest to pursue Special Education.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Happy Father's Day!

One of God's richest blessings in life is having a father. A father, in all grandeur of its meaning; love, care, protection, guidance, compassion, trust, joy, understanding, perseverance, forbearance, fun, adventure, discipline, sacrifice, patience, humility, strength, friendship, and more! That’s how I see a father. That’s how my father is. I love you, Tatay.

Happy Father’s Day to all Dads out there. You are truly God’s gift to your children and honor to your love ones.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

powerful message

A great life is not about routine but doing something rare; to cherish and not to compare; to forgive and not to b lame; to be loving without counting. Laugh at your mistakes but learn from them. Joke over your troubles but gather strength from them. Have fun with your difficulties but overcome them.

Friday, June 02, 2006

so you may know...


my work has been very pressing and i am emotionally being battered by the situation. i could hardly breathe. *sigh*

i pray for God's peace to flow in my heart and that i would meet all my deadlines and still produce good outputs. multitasking at times could feel like suicide.

sigh, sigh, sigh. i want to be calm.

Self Reminder: Nobody can hurt you without your consent. You have enough worries for the day. God loves you.

*Thank God I still love my work.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006


19 May 2006
A Heartbreaking Saturday
It’s almost ten. I was happy to be home. I went up to my room to change. My sister came in. With a hesitant heart and teary eyes she told the sad news: My cat, Musang, died. In a split second, tears welled in my eyes and ran unstoppable. How could that be?

Musang has been with me for almost three years. I only get to see her during weekends when I go home. She’s been the apple of my eye, my living toy. She’s an effective stress reliever—watching her play around or sleep peacefully. Huh. Now, I won’t be seeing my Musang anymore. It hurts pretty bad.

She looks very much like the cat in the painting.

Friday, May 19, 2006

God is awesome!

I got this article from Enoch. Can’t help but shed tears and be moved by the glory of His presence. Praise God for His lovingkindness. Please take time to read.

The Miracle of Indonesia

Praise Him! Glory to God above!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

All hands on deck

This is my boss' favorite line. It means one thing: we have a closed calendar --as always (!!!). We are trying to commit suicide here (yeah, it came from her, too.).

Just came from another staff meeting and so many projects are ongoing and in the pipeline. Nobody is allowed to get sick. Yeah, my favorite line.

The best news so far is, we are up for the Bangkok trip (finally). There were two choices, one was Hong Kong and the other, Bangkok. As you may recall, I went to Hong Kong in February so I was really hoping the group chooses Thailand. And they did. Haha!

It may be anytime between the last week of May or by early June. Going back to real business, I have a lot to do.

Lord, thank you for another privilege of having a trip abroad. I pray that You give me the strength and wisdom I need at work. Praises to You. Amen.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Mothers' Day

To our dear, beloved mothers,

Happy Mothers’ Day. You are a gift to every family and a blessing to your loved ones. God is so loving and made us feel that love through you. We love you!

To all mothers out there, we celebrate with you today. May the Lord grant the desires of your heart and bless you with the life that comes from the Father.

And though my Nanay is no longer around, I will still celebrate this day, in memory of her.

P.S. Dear children, love your parents.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

May 10

Today is the 10th of May. It's summer back here and the sun is HOTT! Just imagine temperature ranging from 34-44 degrees Celsius! Suprisingly, it rained after lunch and still is until now. I remember my father used to tell us that whenever thunder is heard on the 10th of May, there is flood within the year. We had experienced that many times before. I don't really know what's the significance of the date but anyhow, I can't wait but observe; will there be thunder today?

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Thank God!

for many things...

for the gift of life to my sisters, Tan and Jai, and to Tatay, on their birthday.
for the gift of wisdom in my exam...thank God i passed.
for a wonderful time teaching the youth on Friday's Nights of Obsession.
for Oscar Dela Hoya's victory in his bout last Saturday; you don't imagine how happy I am.
for my boss coming home from her program in the Netherlands.
for my brother (and Pastor) and his team's medical mission on Eastern Samar Island.
for being back in the 'work mode' again.
for the beautiful pics we had in our Hong Kong trip.
for this beautiful day.
for my heart that wants to sing.
for the many blessings that are coming our way. Amen!

Thank you, Lord. Amen.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Prayer request

Tomorrow, I will have to take an exam. It's been a while since I felt the pressure of taking a test. Please pray that everything goes well and that I pass the test. Thank you.

Dear Lord, I am nobody, and I can do nothing without You. I pray for wisdom and that Your hand be with me tomorrow as I take the exam. I trust You. Please make me calm. I claim your victory today. Thank you, Lord. In the name of Jesus, Amen.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006


It is madness…
…to hate all roses because you got scratched with one thorn.
…to give up on your dreams because one did not come true.
…to lose faith in prayers because one was not answered.
…to give up on your efforts because one of them failed.
…to condemn all your friends because one betrayed you.
…to not believe in love because someone was unfaithful or did not love you back.
…to throw away all your chances to be happy because you did not succeed on the first attempt.

I hope that as you go on your way you don’t give up, you don’t give in. God is with you.

25 April 2006

Tuesday, April 25, 2006


At work. Need to follow up whether revision for the proposal has to be made. This is totally eating my time.

At Church. Writing a lot of letters. Building a web site. *Hope to finish soon.*

Personal. Need to see my doctor!! My eyes are really tired. Got to prepare for the HS reunion this Saturday. *Who would think this will cause me a lot of pressure? Pwew!*

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Lurkers, Visitors, Guests

I am amazed by how the stat counter on this page increases. It’s just mind-boggling! As far as I’m concerned, I only have a few blogger friends and I doubt if they would raise that counter to its level now. Don’t get me wrong, I know this is a public blog. I just wish you would care to leave a message or comment so I have an idea who’s been here. I would really appreciate that. Thanks a bunch. =)

You are welcome to read this tale…


Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Back from the break


Had a wonderful easter for the most part but got a little sick before it ended. Yup, LOW BLOOD Pressure attacks again. 90/70. I was just too dizzy my head seemed to explode Sunday night. Still not sure if my BP's normal, anyhow, I'm back to work.

We have a memo for a four-day work week starting today. 7:30-6:30 working hours. O.o.

Hope to write more later...especially about the break. In case not, oh well...

Hi everybody!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

A few thoughts on politics.

Everyone has the right to his opinion. I just want to state mine in brief.

It’s a pity to hear people say ‘bad’ things about the government—our government. I am not pro-administration but I am pro-government.

On a general perspective, the Philippines is regarded as a third world country—primarily brought about by economic conditions vis-à-vis the global arena. Poverty is still the basic concern and development is seen as slow-paced. Also, insurgency and instability rock the government from all sides. Worst, the Philippines gained recognition (in the negative sense) as one of the most corrupt nations in the world. Most people who do not know the country could instantly create bad impression; a pathetic image of a hopeless nation. Our island, our Philippines, the Pearl of the Orient, with a brutal tag on her name. This idea breaks my heart.

I would like to mention that the Philippine Constitution is said to be among the bests (if not the best) fundamental laws observed in nations. It covers humanitarian, developmental, and even cultural rights of its people. Sovereignty and freedom are emphasized with certainty. Peoples’ participation is highly regarded in its democratic framework. I believe it covered what is essential for a country to function well.

The structure of the government is creditable in its own right. Agencies, Departments and Bureaus are created to address the various concerns that could possibly come about. The constitutional bodies are granted with autonomy to function accordingly. Efficiency and effectiveness are supported by the commendable mechanisms installed within the structure. Peoples’ participation is encouraged and devolution of power to local governments is exercised. Even the bureaucrats and leaders are generally the cream of the crop of the land. In a theoretical perspective, this is an ideal structure we have at hand.

But why still have a chaotic government? I would just like to focus on three things.

First: Poverty. The Philippines is an agricultural country. The basic industry is farming. The sudden shift of the world towards globalization pressured the country to adopt several actions and policies that do not support agriculture. Given that we have a relatively young democracy (Martial Law was lifted in 1983) and still limping from colonial dominion (333 years under Spain; about four years under Japan; and indirectly under US until present) and ruins of war, we had not strengthen the basic thrust that we should focused on. Agriculture remains in shambles and almost left out. World’s standard of industrialization marred our basic capability. The problem on equity or distribution of wealth is also of note and drastically drowned our people to poverty. Because of poverty, people were forced to take advantage of any privilege at hand. This is the basic of corruption the way I see it.

Second: Greed. Human behavior theories suggest that dissatisfaction is human nature. Acquisition of something will only lead to wanting more. Following my first claim, learning how to ‘get’ something carefree strengthens the drive to want more. Occasions and possibilities to collect are grabbed and even forced. This hunger can hardly be quenched. That is how I see corruption in the government—fueled by greed.

Third: Trust. A sad observation is that, the people have lost (very weak) its trust in the leadership and in the government per se. No matter how remarkable the programs are for development and for poverty alleviation, people hardly recognize. Intolerable poverty caused people to believe that those in power are the only ones benefiting from all these acts; it won’t lift peoples’ lives from poverty. Not to mention the belief that corruption IS the norm nowadays. In effect, they hardly support the state.

History would tell how hurt the Filipinos had become from the hands of our colonizers and even from our own kin. It developed a disgraceful attitude of impatience and lost of discipline. Weariness and fatigue from poverty developed greed and created the monster corruption. Somehow, this is similar to what the naïve Indios (native Filipinos) were subjected to during the time of our Spanish colonizers. It has rooted and unfortunately found a niche in our system.

I don’t know if I was able to give at least the façade of my thoughts but anyhow, I wanted to say those. I know the government’s problem is more complex than I have stated but I guess an opinion would not hurt. It shatters my heart to hear bad impression of us Filipinos in the world’s eyes and not as beautiful people that we are. All I really wanted to say is, I love my country and I have not given up on her neither in her people.

Dear Lord, bless the Philippines.

Monday, April 10, 2006

No Glitch! Arrgh...

A few minutes ago, after posting my previous entry, I realized everything in my template (the CODES) was missing!!! My home page just won't show up! In other words, I LOST MY BLOG! Good thing I saved the old codes; Lost a few links. =(

Hope this will be the last. I can't remember how to make it look the same as it was =( I really am not happy about this! Errrrrrr....

I’m on vacation mode.

This week, I will only be in the office for two days. It’s Holy Week and the rest of the country acknowledges (at least) Thursday and Friday as non-working holidays. In our case, there had been rumors (until the official memo is out) that Wednesday will be announced as holiday. Last year it was so. This makes me feel lazy.

Anyhow, I’m going home tonight. It’s my mom’s birthday and I want to eat dinner with the family. My sisters are going to have visitors tomorrow (—this summer break is mind-boggling, a lot of activities for the kids!) and I also want to see how they plan on this (yeah, I just can’t resist being a stage sister).

So until tomorrow, I will have a long break off work. We will have a Christian parade on Thursday and the assembly is in front of the Capitol Building at the Park. Around 6,000 Christians are expected to be with us. This is actually creating a statement for all the people to see.

Unless I have any other things of note, I may not be blogging for a while. An early Happy Easter to all!

Friday, March 31, 2006

Sem-ender fuss!

It's almost the end of second semester here in UP. I'm busy preparing students' grades (right now, just the undergrads). No, I don't teach here; I'm a URA, yet I assist my Director (who is a faculty in the university) in her teaching tasks. She teaches and grades students but I process the grades--the meticulous side of teaching. Right now, this is what's eating up my day.

I'm almost through--just a few columns my boss has to fill. Grades of graduating students must be submitted on Monday. I have to finish all these today.

It's been raining for the last three days. At least, it changes the atmosphere; more relaxing air and not unbearable heat. I'll be going straight home after office. I hope rain will not catch me on the way.

Have a great weekend everyone! I had to prepare for my bros getaway to Baguio this weekend. Just wanna be sure he packs his bag right :p (big sister sort of thing). Mine did not push through :'( Poor Len.

~~Boy, I'm sleepy.~~

Thursday, March 30, 2006


Take this test at Tickle

Pinay, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

What's Your True Color?

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

My Wednesday

Take time and read this. It's nice. =)

Teeny and I are planning to have a getaway this weekend. I already told my father about it and he said it’s alright. I wish everything will turn out the way we planned it to be. In case it does—bwahahahahahah!!!!

Things are getting a bit slow back here. Not much has to be done in the office; practically because our too-many-activities for the month were dropped to a halt. Some technicalities arose and we had to cancel our scheduled activities. Nonetheless continuing deadlines for projects need to be met. The bulk of work no longer lies on us now—it’s up to our project head. Hope she finishes on time.

It’s been so hot lately. Well, last night it rained pretty hard but not long enough to quench the heat. It’s a little dim outside; maybe it’s gonna rain tonight, too.

Archie, my youngest bro, is going to Baguio this weekend. My cousin will bring him along. I hope he enjoys his time out. Jai and Tan will be left at home but will surely enjoy the weekend—hey, it’s the start of vacation. Classes are over. Thank God!

I’m actually busy transferring all my files to another CPU. It’s tiring for me. I don’t like moving files from one PC to another. It’s a waste of time. Actually, it’s the third time I’ll transfer, I guess. But I had no choice but to do it. Huh, if only this CPU would have a compatible soundcard to be installed, I wouldn’t want to transfer—again.

Still working on the transcription of memoir interviews. Hope to finish today.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

The new cook

Tracing my background, I grew up in a home with good cooks. My grandma is the best there is, the best there was, and for me, the best there ever will be. I used to go with her to places whenever she’s invited on different occasions (and that’s hundred of times) to be the main chef and patisserie at the same time. I’ve seen how good she was, how everything was cut almost perfect—size, shape, etc.—equally and done in a way taste buds can’t resist. She is just so good; the effect in me was the reverse. I had fear holding knives thinking I cannot be good enough.

My parents are good cooks too, especially my father. He knows distinctly how to make something taste uniquely wonderful. My brothers are good cooks themselves. My youngest brother, now 18, does very well with rice cakes. My eldest sister is someone who seems to know all kinds of recipe. Even my two sisters-in-law are unbelievably great!

Growing up from this kind of environment actually was the reason I didn’t learn to cook. How pathetic. Everybody at home can do it, there’s no reason to waste time and ingredients having me in the kitchen, let them handle it. What I’m good at is preparing everything they would need—the huge cooking wares, the large stick, etc. (in our language, kawa, balanga, palayok, kaldero, kaserola, tikin, sandok na mahaba, kutsilyo, planggana, everything!.) and eventually cleaning up the mess they left after cooking. Nobody wants to do that. That’s where I get a chance to be in the kitchen. The cleaner. No doubt, they would all be looking for me after cooking scene is over.

Since I stayed in the apartment, almost a year now, I started to break that ignorance. My friends (there are three of us living together) and I had to cook for ourselves, like a family used to do. So, one by one, we learned to cook the food we wanted to eat. Sometimes we ask others the recipe and do it at home. The learning experience is really fun since there’s nobody to pressure us about the taste. I remember, when we were just making our first tries we have this creed: Everything that is cooked in this kitchen is delicious! Haha, and so we made ourselves believe that until now.

Today, I basically do most of the cooking in our home in the apartment. They say it’s good; I would usually bring some at lunch in the office and they would taste it. My boss even said it’s very good. What she’s telling me now is to learn how to present it well. And that’s the second part of my lesson. So far, my ‘grades’ in cooking is very satisfactory.

So what do you think, am I going to be like my ancestors? Hahaha! Well, see.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Monday madness!

To be honest, today is quite a dull day for me. I guess (hope) it’s still early for me to tell. Anyway, I started out leaving home at 5.30 this morning, hoping that I would be spared from the Monday madness of commuting. Unfortunately it didn't happen that way. I didn’t get a ride until almost 7.15am. Anyhow, I’m glad I had my ride, leaving swarm of commuters waiting for taxis and buses.

I’m madly drowsy on the way. Was planning to go by the apartment first but decided to head straight to office since it’s almost 8am. Made myself a cup of coffee but alas, the heater is not yet plugged in! Oh great!

There are only five of us URAs (University Research Associates) here. One, texted me and said she’s sick. My other pal, I don’t know why he’s not in yet. The two guys are in the outer side of the office (I’m actually in the inner room). I’m all alone here.

Well. It’s just 10.30am. Things will be different in a little while (I hope!). Still a long way to go for a Monday. I just wish to make my day productive.

(I’m working on student records, grades, etc. and a bunch of paper works that I don't really want to elaborate on ;P )

Tuesday, March 14, 2006


Right now, the family is currently having financial difficulties. School expenses for my three siblings are on the hype. Bills are coming from all sides at the same time. There are other unexpected expenditures, too. But what I'm thankful about is, in spite all these, God has not stopped sending me peace. Actually, if my prayers will be averaged according to frequency, it’s Peace that’s on the top rank. And He has not failed to respond. That makes a world difference! Praise Him.

The best part is...I know He will provide. And I claim it. In Jesus' name.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Pressed but not crushed.

I prayed this morning and received …

Cast all your burdens on the Lord; He will never let the righteous be moved.
- Psalm 55: 22.

A timely message from a friend. Thank You, Lord for Your response.

Thursday, March 02, 2006


I don’t know how to feel. Dapat sana masaya ako for my brother, pero bakit parang ang lungkot ko yata? Hehe, hindi lang siguro ko magkasya sa idea that I will be left behind. First time na magkakahiwalay kami. Yup. Ever since, we’ve been together. Iiwan na pala niya ako dito. Maybe that’s how things are gonna be, anyway.

Confused emotions, di ko talaga sure if I’m happy with what’s happening. Bahala na. I hope I’m not being selfish.

Mag-isa na ako dito.

Confirmed. Talagang mag-isa na ako dito.

Kinausap na ako about the application for the position. Nakakainis talaga, bakit kasi hindi pa ako nakapag-exam before? Now, I have to face the consequence. Lord, show me the way…

Hindi na ako makatrabaho nang matino because of the news—both.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006


This challenge is for Sir Keith... :)

Four Jobs I've had
Canteen helper at 11
An English teacher at Montessori School (substitute)
Research Project Assistant (Third Sector Governance Studies)
University Research Associate at the University of the Philippines

Four Movies I can watch over and over
The Patriot
A Walk in the Clouds

Four TV Shows I love to watch
Jewel in the Palace
Full House
Filipino Old films

Four Places I've been on vacation
Hong Kong
Cavite City

Four Favorite Dishes
Fried Milkfish
Sinigang (sour soup) esp. milkfish (can be meat, though)
Humba (meat in sweet & salty sauce)
Nilaga (boiled meat with lots of veggies)

Four Websites/blogs I visit Daily

Four Places I'd Rather Be

Four Blogs I'd like to see do this quiz

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Cebu and Bohol pics

Been swerving for the last three are some pictures.
Check out Memories and Reflections for more pics.

The Philippine Tarsier: the world's smallest primate

Magellan's Cross in Cebu circa 1521

The Blood Compact in Bohol

I'm tired of posting pics. I'll add some more tomorrow.

Monday, February 20, 2006


Yup, after three long weeks! FINALLY! Gosh, that was quite a while! Pwew!

So many things done …so many places gone …so many adventures made…

Will probably write them all next time. I’ll wait for the pictures!

Glad to be back. I’ll blog soon…

Hello All!

Friday, January 27, 2006

Oh…the busy-ness of me!

Inasmuch as I want to update my blog regularly, I’m afraid I would double the possibility of not being able to do so in the next three weeks. Starting the 30th of January, we will be having a three-week conference to be conducted in different areas in the country. This is for the enhancement of the Commission on Elections. These conferences aim to come up with the strategic plan of which the Commission shall work out in the next five years. Yes, we are talking about the big bosses in this government commission nationwide as our participants.

That’s basically what’s keeping me from having a lighter schedule. Pressure extends up to weekend and I barely had rest. Sleep? I wonder when was the last time I had enough? (sigh) But when this is over (which I'm looking forward to) everything will be a lot lighter (I hope!). Preparation and all these meetings are very draining. What do I expect, I'm into research. Multitasking is just the norm.

I miss my friends online! I will even miss you more in the next few weeks. I wish I could peek in once in a while. I hope everybody’s well. Take care. God bless you all.

Hey, I would appreciate if you try to take the challenge =D It’s really nice to read your answers. Thanks!

I pray for protection and blessings to come your way.

P.S. I wish to receive an email from a friend next week.

See you all soon,

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Friday, January 20, 2006

small voice

At this moment, there’s a part of me that says it’s healthy for me to cry. I might listen to it.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Work has been pressing lately.

Yeah, that’s the best way to put it. Somehow it’s starting to tire me down (this time, more than physically). Wish to get off this stage….quickly!

We just finished another event of the day, a day-long conference of CEOs in the government. I did not have much to do; was assigned to man the publications yet, the whole preparation and the day itself is tiring. My body cries out for rest.

I so much appreciate my colleague’s response in the “notes matter” I’m worrying about. She consulted one of our supervisors on the matter and Tita Jean willingly said she’ll get things done. Thanks Ate Lyj, so much. I’ll still pass the report anyway.

Whenever I think of the things I plan to accomplish for the week, it simply drains me. Gosh, I really need to finish all of those! The end of the month is even more threatening. Huh…

Now, I want to go home…at least to the apartment where I stay. I find comfort whenever I get there.

Hope to have some meaningful entries soon and not rants and grudges like this.

Monday, January 16, 2006

"First Love"

Revelation 2, NASB
Message to Ephesus

1 "To the angel of the church in Ephesus write: The One who holds the seven stars in His right hand, the One who walks among the seven golden lampstands, says this:

2 'I know your deeds and your toil and perseverance, and that you cannot tolerate evil men, and you put to the test those who call themselves apostles, and they are not, and you found them to be false;

3 and you have perseverance and have endured for My name's sake, and have not grown weary.

4 'But I have this against you, that you have left your first love.

5 'Therefore remember from where you have fallen, and repent and do the deeds you did at first; or else I am coming to you and will remove your lampstand out of its place--unless you repent.

6 'Yet this you do have, that you hate the deeds of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.

7 'He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches To him who overcomes, I will grant to eat of the tree of life which is in the Paradise of God.'

Lord, let not my heart be weary; keep the fire burning in me. I wouldn't want my first love gone. And if you may, that I grow fonder of You everyday; like I was when I was a child. I love You, Lord.

Friday, January 13, 2006

FRIDAY The 13th

Huh... why am I so bored... and sleepy??


Tuesday, January 10, 2006


Last night we were talking about the story of Ruth and Naomi. Here's a couple of verses from the book of Ruth (Old Testament) Chapter One:

16 But Ruth said, "Do not urge me to leave you or turn back from following you; for where you go, I will go, and where you lodge, I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God, my God."

17 "Where you die, I will die, and there I will be buried. Thus may the LORD do to me, and worse, if anything but death parts you and me."

taken from: New American Standard Bible

Monday, January 09, 2006

Little Angel

Here’s my nephew, Aaron Ariestotle. He’s three weeks old now.

This pic was taken on his birthday Dec 16. Look at this angel! Such a cutie!

Friday, January 06, 2006

another weekend ahead

tomorrow, i will be going home. a lot of activities await me this weekend. for one, it's our church's anniversary. another year of God's blessing in His church. we planned this to be very simple yet of course, preparation is necessary. i pray that it will bless the people all the more. and for another year, for God's shower of blessings and anointing. thank you Lord for another year of service.

we are also called to have an assessment for the youth conference last dec 29-30. i have to rush to the MYF office right after the anniversary. Sunday busy-ness! pwew!

of course, family time. well i'm sure, we'll all be busy with the church program and all, but i will see my loveones, so it's fun! i'll make sure to have a chat with my father despite the sched!

have a great weekend everyone. and a restful one, too. God bless!

Thursday, January 05, 2006




What else?? Sometimes it's hard when people call you in many names... =P

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I can dance.

This statement can cause uproar when heard from me. How come? Simply because I can’t. People who know me would take this as a major joke. Gracefulness is something I would learn in a century. You might even want me to sing instead. I am no dancer at all.

I have long accepted this fact. Ironically, back in grade school, I remember I actually did perform dances in school activities. I even was the leader. I don’t know what went on; maybe I’ve been busy with so many other things in school, in church and even in my personal growth that the knowledge slipped away. Now it’s a pity to see me trying hard to follow basic step.

But what’s wonderful about this is: I don’t mind it at all. True. And it doesn’t stop me from praising God. Human standard would find it a dire thing for me to do but I keep on dancing. I love to dance. And I only dance in one occasion—during worship. I love to dance for the Lord. King David himself looked crazy when he danced for God, so what should I care about?

A lot of people are blessed with wonderful gifts and talents and God expects them to use it for His glory. I may not look graceful in the eyes of men but I will still dance for my God. I personally identify with this song:

Oh, I feel like dancing
It’s foolishness, I know
But when the world has seen the light
They will dance with joy like I’m dancing now.
I can sing of Your love forever.

I’m a growing Christian in faith. And something I learned is, if you want to glorify God with your work, don’t hesitate. Do it. He loves it when He sees you working whole-heartedly; giving your all. I may have two left feet, but I’m a graceful dancer in my King’s eyes.

So they say I can’t dance? I don’t think so. See me at church during worship and you’ll know.

Monday, January 02, 2006

It’s nice to be back.

While I was away, I told myself that I’ll definitely have a number of entries when I get back; to my surprise, I could not think of any right now.

Maybe it’s practical to start of with the Holidays. Ironically, I didn’t go to any of my relatives’. I don’t know; I just skipped family visits this year (actually all my siblings, too). But Christmas was still happy with our own family. And the Lord's Christmas gift to us is our baby Aaron, my nephew (the baby I saved from the dogs --remember my dog bite--while still in my sis-in-law's tummy). He is so cute! Also, we went to church and the service was great—only that we missed a few brethren because of the occasion. On Christmas eve, the youth (I mean almost all) from church went to our home to celebrate with the family. Ain’t that sweet or what? I love those kids.

Right after Christmas is my Ate’s (big sister) birthday. She’s 28 this year, but we keep saying she’s 29! Haha, what a way to make fun of big sister! Just to tease her a little –she knew we were kidding! Thank God for another year He gave her.

New year celebration was a blast! You might expect, yes, my youth group was there again. It’s like a designated route for them. But it was really a blast. Before the clock turned 12 midnight, my father led us to a family altar as we thanked God for another year and welcomed the new one with His blessings pouring in the family. It was really heartwarming to pray together and welcome the new year with assurance from the Lord.

And now, I’m back to work and the usual routines; but is more blessed with the Lord’s goodness and love. Happy new year to all!