For the love of RK

I can think of two things that kept my interest for a very long time now: Rurouni Kenshin and ARASHI. To some extent those two have become my 'obsession with caution'. Anyway, despite my apparent dislike for going to places I am not comfortable with, I went out the other day to Cubao to meet the seller of this poster. I'm glad I did. Finally, I have my own RK poster to hang. :)

Love Bells

A few years back, I went to a Japanese exhibit in campus. The organizers invited Japanese housewives to serve as hosts to the guests. There were several booths installed--showcasing Japanese arts, crafts and culture among others. There's also one booth where you can request the ladies to have your name written in Kanji. I readily queued for that one. Eversince, that Kanji for my name has been posted in my room. I am aware that characters in Kanji have meanings to go with it. I would stare at it for long moments making myself familiar with the image but not really attempting to copy it. When I took Japanese lessons recently, one of the characters we learned was found in my Kanji-name, the character for "gold". I tried searching through my Kanji dictionary and the first character seemed close to the Kanji for "love". That spiked my interest to decipher the meaning of my name in Kanji. So, to make the long story short, I took a picture of the image and sent it to my Sensei. This is what she said: Transliterally, the Kanji reads: Ai = Love; Lin = bells So, Love + Bells. How do you make sense of it? I'd like to take the liberty to translate my own name. I would like to think that Love + bells can mean any of the following: 1) Love bells (literal); 2) A bell of love; 3) A ring of love; 4) A sound of love; and 5) A music of love (quite stretched meaning). That was really fun trying to make sense of the characters. Anyway, it's my name afterall. It's good to think it has a positive meaning. Plus, the mere presence of the characters for "love" and "gold" in it, well, what a powerful name! Hahaha!

Learning Japanese

This summer, Nihongo has become my husband, boyfriend, and lover all at the same time; And yet, it still demands more time. Pwew.

GASSHUKU

IGA Kendo Club Gasshuku. Tagaytay City. 29-30 October 2011.

I survived Gasshuku! We passed the bogu exam! Thank you, Lord! Thank you, Sensei, sempais, and Kendo classmates. Awesome Training Camp! :)

Kendo: New-found Love

I'm not sure if I had written anything about Kendo in my blog as of yet. Nonetheless, I purposely didn't put this entry on my 'Favorites' page; I wanted it here in the main blog. Why? I just feel like Kendo is not like some craze that I will eventually outgrow (which hardly is the matter with most of my faves, surprisingly), but something lasting and, hopefully, permanent.

I am fascinated with Martial Arts in general; my own father is a practitioner, for one. I didn't learn from him though, since he decided not to teach any one of his children. Too bad. But I have grown to love sports and films that involve martial arts of sorts and physical strength in the very least.

When I was introduced to Rurouni Kenshin, I fell in love with the sword. Not only have the characters become alive to me, but the genuine interest to pursue the art of swordsmanship was born. Unfortunately, it was just a wishful thinking for the longest time; I didn’t have any idea how I will get to learn the art, I simply do not have any access to any knowledgeable person nor do I have the time and resources to pursue it. That was until I met my Sensei.

At this age (well, I’m way past the time of one tireless teenager!), it didn’t cross my mind that the dream of being a Kendoka can be given a chance. My classmate and friend in graduate school brought me to the Kendo class late in July this year. There, I met Igarashi Koji-sensei, the 5th-dan Sensei of the IGA Ken Club. Now, here, I can claim that it was love at first sight. The moment I held the shinai in my hands, I knew I would want to keep it.

So, for the last few months, I’m actively coming to Kendo class a beginner/trainee. To be brutally frank, I hold the undeniable position of being the slowest, sloppiest and helpless student in class. It’s especially embarrassing being with mostly teenager classmates. But with all honesty, I’m enjoying every second I spend in Kendo. I have the most wonderful, understanding and highly capable Sensei. My sempais are nothing but supportive at the very least. I enjoy the atmosphere in class. The discipline is simply creating a great ambience for personal growth –in mind and body.

I have so many good tales to tell about my relatively short involvement in Kendo; perhaps in another entry. But right now, I just want to tell the world that I am very happy to have found a new love… Kendo.

Thank you, Lord for the chance to pursue one of my dreams.

Amor

There's a new apple of the eye at home... a tiny kitten named Amor. She's Heart's baby; though Heart's been acting like a spoiled brat and not really nursing this tiny thing (which, of course, makes even my father, the one who's doting so much on Heart, to be really pissed off). Anyway, thought I'd share some cute captured moments over the weekend. Amor's almost two weeks old. 6 September 2011 Unfortunately, I was told over the weekend that Amor is No More. ;'(

“Little Sisters Theory”

Just recently, my 20-year old baby sister had found delight in teasing me into something we both know does not exist. Last weekend, I had to endure another unlikely scenario courtesy of my 25-year old little sister.

Old habits die hard. Since we grew up as playmates, even now as adults, we can’t help but continue the tradition. So, last weekend, my little sister and I decided to play modified Jack en Poy/ Bato-Bato Pik (a.k.a. Janken or Rock-Scissors-Paper). We saw this version in one of the gag shows on TV where the player grabs the other hand of the opponent (sort of keeping it trapped so as not to be able to run away) while playing. This is mainly because the loser would get smacked on the face right there and then. It was supposed to be something fun. My 23-year old little brother was there watching us with much enthusiasm.

So begins the game. I was so much itching into throwing a ‘scissors’ when at the last moment, dropped a ‘rock’. My little sister said she wasn’t really sure how she landed with a ‘paper’. All three of us seemed like in trance for a moment. In a split second, boisterous laughter filled the room.

I guess we all thought that there’s no way I’m going to get smacked on the face. Nevertheless, I loss so came ‘PAK.’ To my dismay, the punishment was done a little more forceful than intended due to excitement. My little brother’s eyes almost popped out of their sockets in disbelief. Then came another round of laughter. My little sister readily released her trapped hand and ran away. I asked for a chance of redemption—a rematch—but she never agreed. That glint in her eyes though makes the humiliation doubled.

So last weekend, I got a hard smack-on-the-face and was laughed at by my dear little siblings. Should I modify the theory into “Little siblings could be cruel” instead?

Little sisters could be cruel. Really.

My sister’s amusement; my demise.

My love life, or rather absence of such, is not an issue at home--at least, that's what I thought. Everyone acted oblivious of that fact and I'm perfectly fine with it. I prefer being the simple me, at home or outside, and I'm sure my family knows that. But little kids (for instance, a little sister aged 20) can be mischievous enough and do things that make afternoons at home interesting, to say the least. So this is what my baby sister cooked over the weekend.

She keeps on hinting that I was supposed to introduce 'someone' at home. This is the second time during the day already. Knowing our Dad, he would only be quiet but actually, he's listening to every single chat that my sister utters. We all KNOW that. And so he was a victim of my sister's funtime, and unfortunately, I happened to be the object of her amusement.

She kept saying that I will be introducing someone at home; winking at me on the side. And then she exclaimed, "Tatay, Ate's almost thirty, right?" And my good father replied, "Yes, I know that.' "She will be introducing someone to us soon. Do you know?" she insisted. " It's about time," he said. My sister grinned at me. "But you--you're still young for those things. You don't have any license to do so," he continued.

I was beyond shocked when I heard him. I shouted with all indignation, "Tatay, you're going to give me away just like that?! Seriously! I have no idea what Nene is talking about. She's making up stories and yet... I can't believe this! You're giving me away!” My sister was having the time of her life with my Tatay's reaction.

And that's one interesting afternoon at home. I'm sure my father really thinks there's someone out there he is supposed to meet. Heh.

What is love?

Part 2

Love exploded like a cannon inside your brain. It left no room to be cautious, careful and reasonable. Love hit you with a battering ram and made you feel happy even as you lay crushed and broken on the ground. Love made you jump off a cliff without a second thought. Love made dangerous and downright suicidal things seem like good ideas. - krystalMage

What is love?

"I had said "I love you" for the first time, and actually meant it. Scared the hell out of me, but after we both said the words it was like every single cliché ever invented about love was suddenly true. The sky was brighter, the world was perfect, my heart was singing and I actually understood the real beauty of love. I'd read it, watched it, dreamed about it, but I had never in a million years thought it was so much more than that. You truly have to experience it to know truly what love is like." – Temptress-Kitten

Interesting. Perhaps one day I would "truly" grasp what she meant by that.

There's one love that surpasses all else: the Love of Christ.

The Santiago Family

1 November 2010

late posting yet not forgetting

On the 1st of this month, a friend of mine celebrated his birthday. You know who you are; and though I may not directly greet you, know that I remembered you more that day than any day. I pray the best for you. God bless.

Another trip to the ENT

As you may have recalled, I have a history of visiting the ENT some three years ago with my left ear. Just this morning, I went back for another case, this time with my right ear.

I am so anxious of the thought that it might be another case of keratosis. The memory of the pain it caused me back then was ingrained in my memory and perhaps will never be forgotten. So, when I started feeling the symptoms again, I had to go and see the doctor.

This time, it wasn't as serious as the first. Still painful though. But the ENT said I have an infection in the throat and instructed me to take some meds. The doc said it will also help with my ear case.

So, in the middle of my chaotic schedule at work and school, I had a timeout to visit the doctor. I hope the pain would go away for good this time.

B1 and B2

Benedict and Bernard. My favorite twin. XD

Our family

Len, Archie, Agnes, Tan, Tatay, Jai

Matt

Finally writing

I've finally urged myself to start writing... Yes, and it feels good.

Paid off

Well, April 5 was the oficial closure of the second semester for this academic year for me. All my papers and exams were in by this time. I'm glad it was over. I checked my grades earlier and found out it was favorable. Thank you, Lord. The marking system in our school gives 1.0 as the highest possible grade and 5.0 for failed. I got a 1.0 and a 1.25. :)

edgy

Pinay has her hands full and on the verge of screaming!!!

It's been a while....

Yup, I really don't have much time to update here anymore...at least for now. A good chunk of my time is now coursing to my studies. There is too much to read; but if you enjoy the subject (and the program of course), it'll be easier to bear. But there are still times when I'm just stubborn or simply lazy. Nonetheless, I love studying. Right now, I'm due with two paper presentations in a couple of days and I barely have a page on each. The hardest part for me is always to begin to write. But I like the topic and will (probably) whip myself tonight to finish a good portion of it. I did my research work and data gathering and the books are all due tomorrow! Right!?! Oh-oh...

I wish to come back here soon and blog some more. Maybe, after I finish my school stuff.

I hope everyone is doing fine.

On a side note: Last Saturday, 13 February, was my Mom's 8th birthday in heaven. I miss you, Nanay. I love you so much.

On Love

If you are looking for a sheep, don't look among the goats.

PCMN

Although you say you are at peace, I know better. You don’t imagine how much I want to comfort you RIGHT NOW. Be still.

~~
My Friend tendered his resignation as pastor of the church he served for 22 years. I know how much he loves the church but he said the Lord is leading him in a different direction. All I pray for is the Lord’s grace in his life.

May the Lord enlighten your path. Enjoy the journey.

Love is in the Air

Everybody's getting married. There are two weddings I will attend this month, another one by the start of the new year, and two others on the row. Just this year, I was part/guest of a few already. My oh my, I still have to prepare for a bridal shower on Saturday. Pwew!

I congratulate my friends and wish them the best!

November Fever

First, happy birthday to my dear friend PC on November 1st!

I have just finished the enrolment process for second semester this academic year. Yes, after the long wait, I am officially back in school as a student. I'm taking a graduate program in Asian Studies with concentration in Japan studies. First semester was fun and I enjoyed being a student again. I got my grades yesterday and according to my adviser, "those were high marks" (wink). geezzz...

So, next week we'll begin the second semester. I hope to perform better this sem. So help me, God. (All glory to Jesus.)

Congrats, Olei!

Congratulations to my dear friend Olei for passing the bar exam!

I guess the word is…frustrated.

Today is my seventh trip to the infirmary to get my medical certificate. Earlier they said they found something suspicious in my x-ray and had to make me go back and forth the lab for further tests. As of today, I am asked to have sputum tests for the next three days, plus PPD.

I rebuke any form of sickness and infection in my body in the name of Jesus, my Healer! Lord, You are in control. Thank you. Amen.

Stage Sister

Occasion: Aubrey Gayle's debut

Last night, I played the ‘stage sister’ role with the kids—I mean, Tan and Archie. They were invited to attend their friend’s debut party and I was all-cramming to transform them into ‘a lady and a gentleman’ respectively.

Tan wore a purple Tinkerbelle-cut dress. It looks lovely on her. It was matched with a pair of silver Cinderella shoes, thanks to Ate Lyj.

Archie, on the other hand, wore a white long-sleeved top with blue tie. I love that tie with the dog prints. He wore an algae green pants with cool streaks.

The makeover was quite a success in my opinion as they both look great. Modesty aside, they look really fit for the occasion.

Of course, they aren’t kids anymore. And social gatherings like this are getting more like a norm for them now. It’s a relief to know that these kids are around good company. Thank you, Lord.

Later that night I heard them come home and said they had a great time. Good for them. I didn’t see the pictures until this morning though. I felt like saying to myself: Mission accomplished!

Christian Life

The beauty of Christian life is

not that we are always strong, but

in the midst of anguish, despair and difficulty

we can still shout...

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME !

Galing Pook ladies

I was invited to join the Galing Pook team during their Galing Pook Awarding Ceremony at the Malacañan Palace. On the background is the Seal of the President of the Philippines. Everybody is in formal attire, our traditional dress, the Filipiniana.

* S I S T E R S *

Here we are! Hehe...
Tan, Jag, Jai, Len.

So, everybody thinks I'm the oldest since I'm the tallest... or maybe, because they said I'm the strictest.

Oh well....

Tina & I

My best buddy in high school came last Sunday. Such an awesome time together!

Galing Pook Awarding

Last night Aidz and I attended the awarding ceremony dinner for winners and finalists of the Galing Pook Award given to outstanding LGUs. The formal awarding ceremony was held in the morning at the Malacañan Palace with President Arroyo. I had fun at the event.

The Filipiniana Search

Yesterday, Aidz and I went to the mall to look for a Barong Tagalog (Filipino formal wear for men). We saw a lot of designs with prices ranging from reasonable to absurd. He tried fitting three or four of them. The designs are good; it’s really hard to pick the best. Anyway, he ended up buying the “latest” design which really looks great. I will see after tomorrow if I’ll be able to post it here. Yeah, we will be wearing formal Filipino attire (Filipiniana dress for me) for tomorrow’s awarding ceremony at Malacañang Palace. He invited me to come to their event. I went home last night to get mine. Today, I'll be looking for possible accessories. At least I got a purse--no way am I gonna buy that ridiculous price! haha!

nieces & nephew

I love these little ones.

a day at home

Tatay, siblings, and the kids

The CLAN Reunion Plan

I went home last night and the after dinner talks at the table stretched to many interesting topics. The most interesting topic was the plan for THE CLAN Reunion. My father really got a kick out of that. Well, for one, he’s the only one who actually carries the family name (being the only brother of three sisters). Also, our third generation only has one bearer (thus far) of the seven grandchildren. So the family name is secured by a three-year-old toddler, my nephew Aaron.

My cousin really wants this to push through. I believe we all do it’s just that no one really gives the time to make it happen. So, last Sunday after my siblings met with my cousins, they decided we will have it in summer.

I love our family. For one, my father’s family is really intact so-to-speak. We were raised to follow the old traditions and still cling to most of them. Even to some Filipinos, they find us old-fashioned. Anyway, I take pride in that.

We had a good time planning for summer’s reunion. It seemed that the organizer will be mainly us (my siblings and my cousin)—the younger generation as they call us. A theme popped in my mind: “Sixty-three and counting….” since there are already 63 of us from the clan’s root. I know it’ll be fun. We’re excited!

Martin Smith of Delirious

Back in circulation

God is awesome!

The three of us (Kuya, Jovell & myself) had been home for almost six weeks now. In that period, a lot of major events and activities had already happened here—-not to mention the most anticipated holidays. I am so blessed to have gone away but even more to come back. This certainly sounds trite, but anyway, “There’s no place like home.”

Right now, I’m busy preparing for the upcoming Anniversary Thanksgiving at Church on Sunday. I’m making bookmarks for giveaways. Also preparing for the bulletin, program, tarp, and hopefully, the radio script. Oh my, I need to finish before weekend!

Things are a little slow here in the office for the beginning of the year. It’s to my advantage, really, so I could do my personal work without so much pressure from my professional work. Thank God. And God’s continually blessing me with beautiful opportunities at work right now.

I wish to post a lot of pictures since we came back but for some reason, the blogger icons aren’t showing up. Too bad. I wonder if it’s just me or the glitch is from the main server.

The first month of the year is almost to its close. Anyway, I would still wish everybody a joyous and blessed new year!

In just two more weeks...

WE ARE COMING HOME!!! Yes, I can't wait!

Thank you, Lord for what You've done and all that You're going to do for us and in the ministry. It was a great time of ministry we experienced. Thank You.

I'm excited for Christmas in the Philippines. There's no place like home.

Announcement

For all interested parties:

We've finally updated the Dreamers' blog until early September. Please do visit us if you may. Thanks!

[For my "regular" visitors:

I'm actually in hiatus right now... I'm on a mission trip here in the United States and I could hardly go on the internet except to check my email once or twice a week. I apologize. However, the Dreamers' blog is where we try to update what's going on in our team and ministry. Thank you.

I miss blogging here!]

Pinay

Almost two more months to go...

Time flies. Little did we know that we've already spent almost four months of our lives here in the United States. In a matter of weeks, we'll be going back home! I can't wait!

I had so many great experiences while we're here. So many "first time(s)". It's fun.Most of all, it's a blessing and a privilege to be part of this ministry.

I give all the glory and honor to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

bertdey-bertdeyan (Birthday)

Okay, so nagbertdeyan na nga ako dito. Actually, masaya naman. Akalain mo na ipag-order pa ako ni Ate Junice ng pancit at may padala pang pizza ang Filipiniana’s Delight. Si Bro. Mark naman, ipinag-bake ako ng kanyang famous chocolate cake—plus 19 lit candles. Wala na halos mapwestuhan! Sus, kung sakali pala at kasya, baka nga 26 candles pa yung nasa ibabaw ng cake!

Nung umaga, sinamahan namin si Sonia sa Seton Hospital. Okay naman ang result ng test niya; her tumor did not grow for the last two years. No threat. Amen.

Tumataba na ko dito. Well, at least, I gained more than a couple of pounds. Sige na nga, lima na since we came. Puro sa braso naman napupunta.

Anong bago now that I’m a year older? Regular kami nagwo-walking around Lake Merced (5 miles) everyday (Mondays-Fridays). Halos familiar na nga yung mga nakakasalubong naming eh. Lumalabas kami around 6 am. Natatapos ko on the average: one hour & 15 minutes.

Matagal na akong di nag-a-update. Nagjo-journal naman kasi ako kaya documented lahat ng nangyayari dito. Day 68 na yata today. Ang nakakalungkot lang, saying yung SIM card ko. Dinala ko kasi; nawala sa loob ko na di ko na mag-e-expire yun dito. Sayang talaga.

Wala na akong masabi pero marami aong iniisip. Pasensya na, di ako makapa-English right now; it’s safer this way. I miss blogging.

I wish to say this in English but right now, I would be writing in Filipino:


Hindi ko maintindihan pero atubili ako. Iba kasi lagi ang feeling kapag nase-seminar ka. Siguro, ganun din yung impression ng mga bata dito pag napapatawag sa Principal’s office. Ako, apat na beses na yatang nase-seminar for the same “offense”. Nanghihina ako after every meeting. Kasi, kahit wala naman akong ginagawang mali, pakiramdam ko lagi akong may kasalanan tuwing mase-seminar. Hay. Malinaw naman na hindi ako ang problema; at hindi rin naman ako sinisisi, pero, nakakapanghina pa rin ang kausapin nang ganun. “Shake it off, Len, shake it off!”

Away from home

Hi everyone! It's been 30 days since the first time we set foot on Cali-land this year. A lot of things had happened--and is happening and is expected to happen-- but for everything, we give Glory and Thanks to God! God is faithful and we are just overwhelmed by His goodness and work in the ministry. Even the people and circumstances that we encounter everyday; all seemed to be part of His wonderful plan.

i think it wont be long before i can officially claim to have gained weight. ironically, most of the time, i'm cooking when nobody invites us to eat somewhere else. anyway, i still believe my 97-pound weight since i first got here is no more.

i think time flies fast. nonetheless, there's one thing for sure: i miss home.

i'm doing great and so is the rest of the team. Thank God. please remember us in prayer.

May the name of the Lord be exalted in our lives everyday. May you be blessed more than you can imagine through Christ Jesus our Saviour. Take care.

Len

Check the Dreamers!

Hello bloggers!

i might not be able to update my personal blog religiously now but you can hear about what's going on with me and the team in our blog: The Dreamers. I linked it here on my blog beside my other theme blogs. hope you can give us a visit. God bless!

Pinay

Check us out here!

This blog is our "official" update section for our trip in the US. It's called, The Dreamers. Here's the address:

http://thedreamers08.blogspot.com/

Now in the US

This is the second day of our stay in the U.S. Tonight we'll minister at a youth group in a church here in Daly City. Next week we'll be in Sacramento to attend a conference.

I'm being religious with my journal because it's more accessible for me to update than to sign in everytime. If i have lots of time, i will try my best to update.

God is very good to us. We have a nice place to stay and the Lord is showing us a lot of favors everyday. We'll stay here for six months. Please remember us in prayer.

Thanks. God bless!

Len

Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!

Long live the Philippines!

Today, we commemorate our 110 years of independence. We salute and honor our beloved heroes who laid down their lives for our freedom. Thank you for your selfless sacrifices and genuine love for our country. I hope that we give justice to what you have done for us.

God is faithful.

I could cry (out of joy) just thinking of God’s goodness in my life… in our life. Thank you, Lord. I received another miracle today. You are awesome, Lord. Thank You and I honor You.

I've been praying for God's miracle for us in this time. And He granted my prayer. Thank you, Lord. I didn't doubt it and He blessed me more than I expected! He has perfect timing. Thank you, Father. This is the year of God's favor! Amen!

A day made early

I decided to wait across the gasoline station by the diversion road for the bus going to work. Not more than five minutes later, I saw the bus and found a good seat. (Two things: I didn’t wait for nearly two hours to get a ride plus I didn’t have to suffer standing on the bus with people from all sides bumping on me.) As the bus rolled, some more passengers came in, until more than a handful had to stand. Then clambed a lady with three children: one boy, around seven or eight; a girl, about five; and a toddler, not more than two years old whom she carries in her arms. There were no more seats available and without second thoughts, I called her attention, stood up and gave her my seat. There were several men with (good) seats who chose to ignore the lady and her kids. I don’t have the heart to see mothers standing especially if I could do something about it. Before I got off the bus she thanked me at least twice. And her smile was enough to make my day.

DC ROCKS!!!!!

MY DAVID WON !!!

MY DAVID WON !!!
GO COOKIES!!!!
WOOHOO!!!

THIS IS PHENOMENAL!!!
I LOVE DAVID COOK!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! GOD BLESSES THE GOOD SOUL!

@ the beach

May

The start of the month is simply very special and memorable. On May 1st, we had our all-church swimming. A lot of my church mates joined and enjoyed the day of fellowship. It was so much fun! The little ones had all the excitement as well. Everybody loves the water. It was a thrilling, awesome day. Thank God for a beautiful day of fellowship with the brethren.

May 4th was Tatay’s 62nd birthday. We really made the most of the day. Our church mates came and celebrated with us. It was truly a blessing. My sister-in-law from the north came home and brought our youngest niece, Althea. She’s such a character! Ate Ester is really good in the kitchen. I was tasked to manage the kitchen had she not been around. God is all-knowing and sent her. Haha! Everybody brought his/her appetite! It was a blessed day.

May 4th was also Oscar (De La Hoya)’s non-title bout against Steve Forbes. Since we had an occasion at home, I wasn’t able to watch the entire match. I had a good view on the later rounds nonetheless. It was a unanimous decision. I’m (very) glad that he won especially that it was held in LA, his hometown—in a football stadium of 27,000 seating capacity. He said he’s preparing for two more bouts before the year closes: one in September, a rematch with Floyd Mayweather, Jr., and in December, versus Miguel Cotto.

In the afternoon, brethren from Friends of Jesus International Ministries in Makati came and had an outreach at church. They also distributed Old and New Testament Bibles.

Sunday evening was the most exciting time for me. My friends from the MYF came to greet Tatay. Kuya Arnel, Red and Apple came!!! We had so much fun. We stayed in the kubo and chatted a lot! I had time to really TALK with them. I miss having just plain friends’ day with the group. It was unfortunate that Ate Marie did not make it. We will schedule a get-together before we leave for the States.

On Wednesday will be Jai’s birthday. I’m still thinking how to give her a blast.

What’s up and coming?

• We have an all-church swimming day on May 1st. I’ll be going home tonight for that.
• It’s Tatay’s birthday on Sunday. We’ll be hosting lunch at home. I invited a few friends to come over. I hope Apples can make it.
• I’m planning to experiment on a new dish. Finally found a recipe on the net. If it goes well, I promised to cook some for my officemates. Wish me well.

Reminiscence

I'm trying to recall some of the major accounts of "our [my] life" in my Filipino blog, not only for nostalgia but also, because those times magnify the goodness of God in our family. Looking back relives the memories and emotions in every event. But above all, it was a testimony of God's faithfulness and love.

Upset Tummy

I went to work this morning and right before I could get off the jeepney, the attack started. I literally dragged myself to walk an extra 50 meters and get to the second floor of our building to find our office. It was so painful. My officemates readily look for something to ease the pain: Tita Nors and Ate Lyj went out to buy some meds; Cha gave the pink stuff from RB; I had to drink hot water, etc. I thank God that by this hour, I am well already. Thank you, Lord. And thank you, guys.

something funny today

I saw something funny today on my way to work and thought of submitting it to Reader’s Digest site. After I clicked the “Submit” button, here’s what appeared on my screen:

Thank you, Arlene!
Your submission makes 20,918,366 jokes, quotes and funny true stories received to date.
So far we've paid $25,424,875 to RD readers! If we decide to publish your submission, we'll send you a check!

famous??!

It’s like a routine for me in the morning to check my mails and some sites where I have personal accounts at. I checked one this morning and found out that there is this article about US visa application that linked my blog specifically quoting one of my entries. Whoah! No wonder my visitor counter has been shooting up lately. Anyway, hello there!

Something to ponder

My nieces are watching the cartoons Spongebob when I came in. The characters are talking about getting rid of something that was 'special' to Spongebob. I like what the Krusty Krab owner told Spongebob:

"Sometimes, we have to set things free even if it's hard." ~ Mr. Krabs

Manifesting emotions

I believe there is always a reason for change. It may lead for the better, sad if it’s for the worse. But there are reasons. At least one.

Anyway, I cut my hair. Short. Why? I have three things:
1. It’s long. I always wear my hair long but now it’s been LONG. I had my haircut two weeks ago but it didn’t seem to make any difference. This time, it’s different.
2. It’s hot. Summer is simply getting into the lifestyle of people. At least shorter hair may lessen the heat for me.
3. I made a tough decision recently. How many of you know that one unique reason why women cut their hair is decision making? Yup. It’s an emotional thing besides anything physical. It was really tough for me, emotionally-draining, that I had to resolve into cutting my hair—short. I thank God that it’s over and that He favored us and made everything clear. Thank you, Lord.

Well, just blogging.

In Memory of Nanay

Today is my mother's 58th birthday.

lost post

This entry should be posted here instead.

A happy weekend

Happiness is a general feeling I have whenever I go home. But this weekend was more than just being happy, it’s matched with joy and gladness. I got home early on Friday and took my nieces to have their hair cut. It was a lot of fun bonding with the kids. Everybody liked her specific style. Cute!

On Saturday at practice, we tried a different setup for worship leading. I asked Mac and Aina each to sing solo. Plus we had all the singers upfront facing the congregation. It didn’t take a lot of adjustment. Plus the instrumentalists were good.

On worship day, the first thing in the program was the tambourine dance presentation of the little girls. Oh, I should have recorded that! It was awesome. Especially seeing the little ones enjoying their dance offering to the Lord. It really sticks to memory. And their planning on doing more of those. Good job, teachers!

In the afternoon, we watched a series of Filipino fighters in WBO matches. All of them won!

Sunday night was our meeting at the MYF office. God has showed me another miracle that night. Praise the Lord. Talk about that more on my Leadership blog.

Monday is my extra day-off. Yes, I did the laundry. But I’m glad I did.

Long Weekend Break

I'm heading home now to Malolos. It's exciting because I get to enjoy a long weekend again--Monday is a holiday. I hope to rest a bit this weekend. Anyhow, I get a feeling I'm gonna work on some housechores waiting for me. Oh boy....

Have a great weekend, everyone!

Monday, 31st

Oh, I just realized, today is the last day of the month, and the last day of first quater 2008...
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This morning, I was on my way to the bus station when the trike passed by a familiar face. In a split second I recognized the face—Kuya Julius! I instantly waved at my favorite cousin, who, I guess, decided to visit home for summer. Now, I want to go home too and have a chat with him!

As usual, buses on a Monday morning were like raindrops in the desert. After waiting under the heat of the sun for nearly 35 minutes, I jumped onto the first bus that came and suffered the “sardines-formation.” I was carrying an extra bag plus umbrella, which made it a lot harder for me to grab the railings. Being a passenger for several years, experience and observation taught me that inside a jam-packed (standing-room only) bus, you’ll find that 70 percent of the people standing are women; 30-40 percent of them are 50s and up. Disappointing but true. Anyhow, there are instances when “a gentleman” happens to be on the same bus and humbly offers his seat. However, that doesn’t happen everyday; at least not today.

The summer sun really dries us up. Ang init!!! (So hot!!!) The same reason I’m so determined to work on the laundry at home. I have just declared an all-out war against dirty clothes. When I’m through, my next battlefield will be the bedrooms.

The Godmother

Yesterday we went north to Tarlac City where my eldest brother’s family lives. It’s Geng’s graduation day. I have always called her “anak” which means “my child” since she is my niece and goddaughter. And I think I was even more excited than my brother and sis-in-law given the fact that our third-generation “first born” so-to-speak is graduating.

All of us drove there except Tan and Archie who had their final exams scheduled the same day. Instead, Wally and Fati came along. Tatay made some rice cakes (kalamay) while Ate brought spaghetti. It was a smooth, almost three-hour trip.

It was really nice to see the girls again. This was also the first time for me to see our youngest niece, Althea. She is such a character!

As always, I play the photographer part in the group. One thing is observable: if you hold the camera, you’re not in the picture. Anyway, I enjoyed every shot especially when my girl is in it.

And like icing on the cake, Geng had a surprise for all of us. We didn’t know she’ll be given a medal of excellence. How about that? So Kaka climb up the stage and received the medal with Geng. After the occasion, my nieces came home with us to Bulacan for the summer break.

On our way home, Geng said, "Ninang (godmother), your gift to me is a swimming outing for us this summer!" Everybody answered, "Yay!" O-oh! So, we have three little children running around the house starting today, and myself preparing for a summer getaway for the children.

I'm back

I'm back in the office after an extended (Holy Week) holiday break. Tomorrow, we will be heading to Tarlac City. It's Geng's graduation day and I don't want to miss it. She's my goddaughter.

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My passport was delivered on Saturday. Kuya Arnel and I both got a 10-year visa. Amen!

Success!

Yesterday was the interview at the US Embassy. They approved our application. I, sort of, enjoyed the conversation with the consul. She didn't even ask a single document. This time they granted me a multiple-entry visa. Gee...

Thank you for praying for us. Praise the Lord for His goodness.

Updates...

Bank statement----check.
Church letter-------check.
Employer letter----check.
ITR----------------check.
ID pics-------------on Saturday.

Power of Appreciation

This morning, I received an email from a friend professor from FSU. He asked if I had a copy of a file I made for him two years ago. A couple of hours later, I was reading his letter of thanks. It was enough to make my day. He wrote:

“This is exactly what I was looking for. Thanks so much. You are a gem! I hope Ma’am Lily (my boss) knows how valuable you are.”

Gee… nobody ever called me " a gem" before. Hehe... Thanks, Sir RB!

LIFE IN THE 1500s - Interesting!

We were told in high school, "When you learn, you share." Here's what I learned today. (Courtesy of JVA's mail)

The next time you are washing your hands and complain because the water temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used to be.

Here are some facts about the 1500's:

1. Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in May, and still smelled pretty good by June. However, they were starting to smell, so brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting married.

2. Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and men, then the women and finally the children. Last of all the babies. By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it. Hence the saying, "Don't throw the baby out with the bath water."

3. Houses had thatched roofs-thick straw-piled high, with no wood underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the cats and other small animals (mice, bugs) lived in the roof. When it rained it became slippery and sometimes the animals would slip off the roof. Hence the saying "It's raining cats and dogs."

4. There was nothing to stop things from falling into the house. This posed a real problem in the bedroom where bugs and other droppings could mess up your nice clean bed. Hence, a bed with big posts and a sheet hung over the top afforded some protection. That's how canopy beds came into existence.

5. The floor was dirt. Only the wealthy had something other than dirt. Hence the saying "dirt poor." The wealthy had slate floors that would get slippery in the winter when wet, so they spread thresh (straw) on the floor to help keep their footing. As the winter wore on, they added more thresh until when you opened the door it would all start slipping outside. A piece of wood was placed in the entranceway. Hence the saying a "thresh hold." (Getting quite an education, aren't you?)

6. In those old days, they cooked in the kitchen with a big kettle that always hung over the fire. Every day they lit the fire and added things to the pot. They ate mostly vegetables and did not get much meat. They would eat the stew for dinner, leaving leftovers in the pot to get cold overnight and then start over the next day. Sometimes stew had food in it that had been there for quite a while. Hence the rhyme, "Peas porridge hot, peas porridge cold, peas porridge in the pot nine days old."

7. Sometimes they could obtain pork, which made them feel quite special. When visitors came over, they would hang up their bacon to show off. It was a sign of wealth that a man could "bring home the bacon." They would cut off a little to share with guests and would all sit around and "chew the fat."

8. Those with money had plates made of pewter. Food with high acid content caused some of the lead to leach onto the food, causing lead poisoning death. This happened most often with tomatoes, so for the next 400 years or so, tomatoes were considered poisonous.

9. Bread was divided according to status. Workers got the burnt bottom of the loaf, the family got the middle, and guests got the top, or "upper crust."

10. Lead cups were used to drink ale or whisky. The combination would sometimes knock the imbibers out for a couple of days. Someone walking along the road would take them for dead and prepare them for burial. They were laid out on the kitchen table for a couple of days and the family would gather around and eat and drink and wait and see if they would wake up. Hence the custom of holding a "wake."

11. England is old and small and the local folks started running out of places to bury people. So they would dig up coffins and would take the bones to a "bone-house" and reuse the grave. When reopening these coffins, 1 out of 25 coffins were found to have scratch marks on the inside and they realized they had been burying people alive. So they would tie a string on the wrist of the corpse, lead it through the coffin and up through the ground and tie it to a bell. Someone would have to sit out in the graveyard all night (the graveyard shift") to listen for the bell; thus, someone could be "saved by the bell" or was considered a "dead ringer."

And that's the truth... Now, whoever said that History was boring ! ! ! Educate someone...Share these facts with a friend.

A Poem

I had an urge to write a poem this morning. Here’s the first draft:


Woman
By Pinay, 21 February 2008

Each morning I wake up hopeful of a better today;
Whispering prayers of trust and assurance,
Gearing myself with smile and pride,
Walking in faith armored with love.

I am the one at the corner
Tying the ends left undone.
Many times I stay in the shadows
To push on and make you shine.

My words can be as gentle as a cat.
Listen when I speak to understand my heart.
I can be daring, yes, you’ll be surprised
Though I certainly know when to subside.

I like flowers and details of sorts.
I can enjoy petty things like a pot of gold.
Do not think I’m unreasonable once I made up my mind.
The logic of my action is more than what it signifies.

I am the defender of order since time immemorial.
I won’t mind your business just make sure it’s done right.
Company is enjoyable; loneliness is hostile
But for solitude and serenity I would pay a price.

I am called in many names;
I know that for a fact.
Within this revered sight
A soul endures to bring life.

Favors are not what I intend to have;
Respect is what is due me.
Love defines who I am.
Time belongs to me.

You find me strong, yes, I am.
My heart is full of courage though marred with strife.
No, I am not selfish; I know my rights.
Sacrifice, if I may say, understates my role and act.

I don’t really mind how you sound; I want you to sing.
Make me laugh and I will consider your whims.
It may seem absurd but ‘I remember everything.’
Treat me as a princess and I will be like your queen.

Who am I?
I am a woman.

THIS SAYS IT ALL:

Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Men don't do what they're supposed to do.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.

BUT.........

Sisters are there,
no matter how much time and how
many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away
than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you
have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life
will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on
your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the
valley's end.
Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk
beside you...Or come in and carry you out.
Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters,
daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers,
Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended
family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn't be the same without women, and
neither would I. When we began this adventure called
womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or
sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we
would need each other.
Every day, we need each other still.
Pass this on
to all the women who help make your life meaningful.
I just did.

--Adapted

Weekend Delight

Friday. I went to the ‘Nights of Obsession’ at Turn to Jesus. It was nice to see a number of kids attending the first event of the year. Of course, it’s a joy to find my MYF family; though I was hoping a lot more were present. Anyway, here’s an exciting news: Ate Eugene and Kuya Danilo ARE GETTING MARRIED IN MARCH!!! YAY!!! We earlier thought it would be in April though. She gave me the Wedding invitation and expected 100% attendance from all the core. Now I’m busy thinking of what gift to give the couple. I think I can come up with something unique. Que Romantic!

XXX

We learned a new song at church on Saturday night. I love the music and lyrics. I just couldn’t keep myself from dancing! Pa ra ra rap pap pa ra rap pap pa….

XXX

Yesterday at Church, we had a post-Valentine gimmick. One of the games was themed like the game show “Game KNB?” or simply survival of the fittest. There were only two pairs left: Fati and myself; and Ate Adel and Nana Remi (?). The last question was to supply as many definitions of LOVE based on 1 Corinthians 13. Guess what? We Won!!! Haha! My prize which I brought here in my office is a cute décor with an inscription, “JESUS: Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father and Prince of Peace.” Amen. I placed it next to the roses. XD

XXX

Ate is back. Tan has a new pair of shoes. The kubo is almost finished. Tatay is happy. The kids are enjoying themselves. I feel good after doing the cube. God is Awesome. Thank you, Lord.

XXX

Today: I successfully finished working on all six phases of the Rubik’s Cube.

Heart’s Day

Valentine’s Day is uneventful for me since time immemorial. I simply don't make a fuss out of it. Nonetheless, I’m happy for those who make this a special holiday.

This year’s Heart’s Day must have been the most accessorized one for me. Thoughtful PC sent me a card; sweet Biday gave me chocolates; I got flowers from our ever romantic Kuya Neil and “expecting!” some more later tonight (right, Aidz?!). I’m also quite sure Stephen will be generous enough to bring desert for dinner. But the best so far was the pre-Valentine lunchdate with the girls and our generous and charming Lolo, Sir Ben! How about that? Thanks, guys!

So, Happy Heart’s Day to all of you!

Cheers,

Pinay

The Kiss

(Photo taken at Lake Merced, Daly City, CA on May 10, 2007)

Six years today

It happened on the eve of Valentine’s Day: a Wednesday. It’s been six years since Nanay’s been with the Lord.

I miss you a lot Nay. I love you.

Pinay’s January

Last month has been rather exciting and memorable for me (with a little sarcasm).

On January 8, we had the centennial kick off here in the University. It was an awesome event. That very night, I accidentally burned my thighs with a cup of boiling chocolate drink. It was hot! Thank God I didn’t have to rush to the hospital.

About two weeks later, on the 27th, my brother and I were merrily riding a motorcycle going to my friend’s house for a visit. On the way, another motorcycle overtook the car on the opposite lane and crashed on us. Surprised, the man instantly jumped off his bike unharmed and let the thing hit us. Next thing you know, my brother and I were in the hospital waiting for the x-ray results of our arm and leg.

I had to be off work for several days because the wound on my foot was too deep; it was hard for me to walk. My brother didn’t miss any because his injury was on the arm. Anyhow, we are grateful to the Lord for sparing us from any serious injuries.

My brother is almost completely healed. I’m still on the healing stage. Tell you what, it hurts a lot! Ouch!

One thing I learned from all these: God always protects us and gives us strength in days of trial. He loves and cares about us. Thank you, Lord. Perhaps it’s about time I take a little rest and stay home.

d' men

Ninong Obet, Pastor Aries & Tatay Daco

(Smiling at the back: Tita Josie, Jai, and the LJMP Family)

Coffee Prince

It's been a while now since I decided not to drink coffee as much as possible. It's either tea or choco/milk(?). But right now I'm so into KAPE (coffee) as my friends call it. Napupuyat ako sa panonood. Nakakatuwa ang prinsesa, aba, at talagang sa prinsipe pa rin ang bagsak. Isa lang ang masasabi: pagkagwapo naman talaga ng prinsipe na yun! When do I meet my prince? Haha!

Where my heart belongs...

At Home

23 December 2007

Christmas Sunday

It was a great day in Church. The worship was good. We had visitors from Sun Cellular which also sponsored a few parlor games for our Christmas Party. It was fun! A lot of us won in the raffle. Archie, Jai, Wally won P500-worth GCs from Robinsons. Jai and myself both won in the ‘Bring Me’ contest. Kuya Rene won the grand price of a brand new Nokia 1112. The Christmas Party proper was totally elating. We had so much fun. The youth presentation of “On My Own” was very good. The acrostic made by the mothers was equally wonderful. But of course, the youth won. Haha!

Another exciting part of the Christmas Sunday was our Best Hat Search. Everyone was asked to participate in the contest. Archie made a reindeer hat; Jai, a White Christmas; Tan, a Christmas Tree; Wally, a giant sock, Tatay made for himself a Filipino inspired hat with coconut skin, Ate wore an angel hat; while I had a trumpet style. Guess what? Archie won the first prize and Tatay brought home the second prize. It was really fun. Praise the Lord for a blessed day.

25 December 2007

Christmas Day

It’s Christmas Day! A few friends came over to visit. Kuya Edmon and Ate Jen brought here my goddaughter Erica. Several children dropped by. The biggest surprise is actually my nieces coming home from Tarlac. It was two Christmases ago when they last celebrated with us. You won’t believe how big they are now; especially Geng! She’s just a few inches short my height. So I guess they’ll stay here for the rest of the Christmas break.

One sad thing that happened during the season was that, Charlie, our dog, died on Dec. 19. We were really upset. But God is good. It’s time to say goodbye to Charlie.

26 December 2007

I was requested to cook for my Sis’ unofficial class reunion. It was A LOT of cooking! Thank God I survived with flying colors. I was asked to cook again the following day. Praise God the cell group said it was good. Hehe. Now I’m preparing myself for New Year’s Eve. My sisters already went to buy the ingredients. Looks like I will be the official holiday cook.

HOPE EVERYBODY HAS A WONDERFUL
NEW YEAR AHEAD! GREETINGS!

:)

Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas

and a Blessed New Year!

God loves you and may His grace abound in you

and your homes today and always.

It was a great year filled with God's love and mercy....

Thank you, Lord!

Looking forward to a more exciting,

victorious year by God's grace!

All glory and honor and praise be unto Jesus,

our Lord and Savior. Amen.

Again, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Our God is an Awesome God!

Greetings! ~Pinay & Family

Back from the unknown

I can’t remember the last time I key-in a blog entry. An overused excuse is the undying “I’m busy” statement. Seriously, the first three public lectures were done; that’s really a relief. Thank God.

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Unfortunately, I regret to blog about what happened today especially that it’s just a few days before Christmas. (Technically, we’ll be staying in campus until the 19th and thus off we enjoy the long holiday.). Anyway—

It was not a very exciting Monday morning coming to work today; I came at just a few minutes before lunch time. We were supposed to have a staff meeting at 10 am but my director decided to “delay” it. By the time I came to office, there’d been a glitch in the power supply of the entire building. The office was mainly ‘impaired’. With not much to do, my director casually talked about the plans in the office for the coming year. We all have home works so we can easily take off in January. One of the senior staff (excuse me, but perhaps I must mention that her attitude is better understood using the word “difficult”) who was out earlier came and instantly thought that the staff meeting went on without her and she was excluded from the planning. My boss was really very kind to her and tried her best to let our senior staff understand that we did not “betray” her at all (as she implies). The following events were very unhappy and really made us all upset—especially, in the spirit of Christmas. I couldn’t help but shed tears…

I hope that our senior officemate will open her heart and listen to reason after what had happened. Her fury was actually based on wrong assumption. And besides, is a good example of the idiom, 'a mountain out of a mole hill.' I really feel bad for her. Huh..

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Needless to say, there are a lot of wonderful things that happened during my hiatus besides this sad incident. God is so good. He is good to me, to my siblings, to Tatay, to Teeny and Aidz, to my Pastor, to the church and to my friends… Actually, it’s harder to write all of them here. But I thank God for His grace and mercy. Again, He showed us His faithfulness.

My work has caused me to delay my Christmas preparations. I have until tomorrow to ready my gifts. But I haven’t even started yet. Tonight is the SURP Christmas Party; tomorrow, here, in the college. Lantern Parade will be on Wednesday, while Teeny’s birthday party (she was born on Dec.25) will be on Thursday night. It leaves me until Friday to go home and prepare for the church Christmas celebration.

All the cards I’m supposed to mail for Christmas will also be late—perhaps I should warn the recipients to expect them on Valentines’ Day instead. Huh.

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I just want to say hi to my friends Sir Keith and Pastor Ben of Amadeo. I enjoy reading your entries.

An early Merry Christmas to all!

Updates…

Freedom...

God blessed the Freedom Concert 2! Thank You, Lord! All glory to Jesus! And thank you for all your support and prayers for us and the ministry. Modesty aside, we literally filled the venue! I will write a separate entry later… I am very, very busy right now!

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Rants…

Work has become more and more pressing as days pass by. It’s really tough to put all the pressure onto yourself. This one I’m working on is, in a way, bigger than the Congress. It drains me. And I think my boss is somewhat “out of context” at times. I don’t think I’m responsible for this tight schedule in the first place. Huh.

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Personal…

I’m weak and broke. I feel like my head is ready to explode. I’ve been having troubles calming myself lately, and so with breathing well… even when I wake up in the morning. So many things are making me anxious—work, home, life. I pray for God’s peace. I need to keep my faith high. I need to trust God whole-heartedly. Forgive me, Lord whenever I feel neglected. Please help in prayer. Thanks.

The Freedom Concert II

On Saturday, Nov. 24, 2007 @ 6p.m. at the C.E.U. Centrodome, City of Malolos will be the much-awaited FREEDOM CONCERT II!

Praise God for all He's done in the lives of the young people and in the MYF ministry for the past five years. We are forever grateful to our Lord Jesus Christ!

Last year, Freedom Concert I was swarmed by 4,500 young people from all over the place. This year, we are expecting 6,000 souls to fill the arena. Lord, may Your will be done. We wanna see Jesus lifted high!

Please pray for all the MYF teams as we embark in this ministry for Christ. And most especially, for souls to be saved in the name of our Savior Jesus Christ.

I will head the Ushers' Team. Please remember us in prayer. Thanks.

I'm excited!

for us

received from a friend....

Being Twenty Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

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Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

prayers please

I’m suffering from indigestion and it hurts a lot! Ohh.... (sniff)

Testimonial Dinner Pics

Here's the link to the pics at the dinner last Friday. Well, yeah, I wore a dress.

The Dinner

Last Friday night we went to the awarding ceremonies of the outstanding career executive officers in the Philippines. I believed I was the youngest guest until I saw a three-year old girl (smile). As you know, it’s a formal gathering and they required people to be in so-called formal attire. Thank God I got one.

It was nice to be at the venue...very elegant. The awarding ceremonies actually came at the end of the program; the CESB was also celebrating their anniversary that evening. One bonus of the night was the chance to hear my favorite chorale, UP Concert Chorus. They were invited to perform.

Like I said, I was one of the search validators. My validee won and I got a chance to personally congratulate her. She remembered me. What I’m actually excited about was the part when the presentor read the biosketch of the winner. He was reading an excerpt from MY REPORT. The exact words I’ve submitted to the awards committee. I felt so honored. I could still remember how hesitant I was to take this assignment at first. It’s a great feeling for a first-timer like me.

It was quite an experience and I got a chance to fellowship with other partners from the CESB and other departments. I will probably post some pictures here later.

A wonderful church day

I was elated of yesterday’s service at church. For one, the worship was very filling. Praise God! Another thing, I was blessed by the message preached by Pastor Aries. It was words of comfort and assurance in the Lord. Also, I am happy to see how bold Pastor Aries was in preaching the word. He shared it with remarkable confidence and sincerity; and you can feel the power of God’s words speaking to your heart. I thank God for every blessed day spent in church. May it always be.

Women's Language: Read between the lines

I stayed for four years in the dormitory while in college. One of my roommates sent me this today.
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If I don’t call you
[ It's because I’m waiting for you to call me ]

When I walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When I stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When I push you or hit you
[ Grab me and don’t let go ]

When I start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When I’m quiet
[ Ask me what’s wrong ]

When I ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When I pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me I’m beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When I’m scared
[ Protect me ]

When I lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When I tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When I don’t answer for a long time
[ Reassure me that everything is okay ]

When I look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When I say that I like you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When I grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When I bump into you
[ Bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When I tell you a secret
[ Keep it safe and untold ]

When I look at you in your eyes
[ Don’t look away until I do ]

When I miss you
[ I’m hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[ The pain never really goes away ]

When I say it's over
[ I still want you to be mine ]

When I repost this bulletin
[I want you to read it ]

Something formal

I got this invitation today. It’s actually the awarding ceremony of the country’s top executives (If you recall I was one of the validators during this search and my validee happened to be one of the five winners.). Now, my concern is…this is a formal dinner! Pwew! I would not want to wear a dress…. Now I got to find myself a decent Filipiniana. I’m sure I’m the youngest guest here. Oh…

Prayer for a friend

Dear God,

You are our loving Father. I come to you today in behalf of my friend PC. He needs you. He’s been having some concerns about the church and at home. Please give him wisdom and discernment. And most of all send him peace. Keep him still—calm in the knowledge of Your love. Be with him today. Thank You, Lord. I trust in You. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Long vacation

I was able to enjoy a long vacation recently. There’d been many holidays starting from the Barangay Elections to All Saint’s Day.

I’m very happy to have lots of sleep while at home—that’s got to be the best reward.

Besides Tan winning solo from her slate, we enjoyed fun times with the rest of the family. Ate and I had to finish the bulk of laundry that the kids couldn’t catch up on (yeah, that’s where big sis’ role come in), and of course other household chores. What’s fun were not really the chores, but the bonding moment and sense of accomplishment together.

In the MYF, both Ushers’ Training sessions went well. This year, we had a good number of volunteer turn out (Praise the Lord!). Red and I are very encouraged with the ushers’ response. It’s a tough job for 55 people ushering for 6,000. But I’m happy that they are willing to take the challenge. Our theme verse: 1 Corinthians 15:58 “…Your toil is not in vain in the Lord.”

Our time at the cemetery on All Saint’s Day was also enjoyable as it also became an occasion to be reunited with several relatives—especially my cousins. It’s been a while since we stayed late at the cemetery.

During the past few days I was in active inspection of the plants at home. The rain still come-and-go which delays the flower season in our yard. But before I came back to work this week, I noticed the buds starting to come out. That’s a pretty good sign. I guess early December would mark the blooming season. Tatay is very positive about it. I feel bad that some plants did not survive the flood; anyhow, there are still others left to look forward to blooming. Oh, the euphorbias are already in bloom!

I got a new assignment at work. My boss assigned me to spearhead the public lectures on the assessment of the country’s constitutional bodies. I have to call the chairs/heads of the respective commissions now to follow-up schedules, etc. We’ll publish another book after this.

Please continue to pray about the Freedom Concert II and the MYF teams. We are less than three weeks away before the concert. Please pray that the glory of the Lord be lifted up amidst the young crowd. We really pray that God would bring in 6,000 souls to hear His word. Thank you.

Personal: On Tuesday morning, I heard the gecko in our room again. Please pray that it goes away. It’s my nemesis. Thanks.

Jubilee!

Yesterday was the Barangay (local) Elections in the country. As the banner reads, my little sister, Tan (better known as Angie in the community), ran for councilor in the Sangguniang Kabataan or SK (Youth Council) age group 15-17. I’m happy to announce that SHE WON! Yup, my dear lil’ sis is now a politician—to our big surprise. What is interesting here is that, there were only two parties vying for the elections and Tan happened to be “recruited” by the unpopular/opposition party. After the elections, the entire administration slate got the posts except for one which my sister got elected to. Haha! So, in effect, she’s the only opposition in the entire leadership. Now, we face the challenge!

Anyhow, my congratulations to my dear baby sister! I’m so happy for you! Let’s celebrate! The "Victory Party" will be after church service come Sunday. Thank you, Lord!

Friends for Keeps

a.k.a. The Three Bears; Orig Housemates; HSP (Halik-Sa-Poon)

Crush

Okay, probably this is the first time you’ll ever read about something like this here.

Yesterday, I went to interview our validee for the outstanding CEO award. I was back in the office around 3pm. Teeny’s Pastor will be coming over for dinner to pray about the house. I went to fetch her in her office (next building). As I waited downstairs, Sir Ben (Dean) came out and we had a short chat. As he was speaking, out came from the main door the (cutest!) young professor in the School. Boy, wasn’t he cuter than ever?! (sigh) He is known for being prim and proper, intelligent and very good-looking. He is very quiet, too. I should mention, he looked my way (maybe curious who the dean’s talking to) as he passed. Pwew! Even when Teeny and I came home, I could still remember that handsome face striding along the lobby. Teeny was so excited seeing my reaction; surprised with the idea that I was actually saying how cute the professor was. Until this morning, she’s not letting go of the subject. Haha. Anyhow, guess I got a little crush on him. (wide smile)

Counting blessings

The last few days has been filled with showers of blessings from the Lord. I rejoice and give all thanks and praises and honor to God! Amen.

- The Congress was done with flying colors! Yahoo!
- Birthday bash was a happy day!
- The PCNC report is done!
- My validation partner is a Christian!
- The MYF PLAY Seminar was so much fun!
- Today is the last day of field interview.
- I finished HEROES last night! Very Good series!
- God is so good to my family, especially to Tatay. Thank you, Lord.

Jubilant!

And so the world would know… finally.

Ang kasaysayan ng TIN

Sa hinaba-haba ng panahon;
Nagkaroon din ngayon!
Hay,,,
Sa WAKAS!!!!
TAGUMPAY!